A World of My Own

lost & found

2011-09-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

this blog was lost for a long long long time.
it had been abandoned..
the motivation of keeping it alive had stop as I believed you had too had stop reading.
however I understand truely that I'm living for myself and not for you.
hence I continue to jot my life dw.
I found back myself to continue w my blog.

A New Chapter

2010-06-27T13:52:00.002+08:00

I always regard life as a script.

we write our own script in life.

making decisions on our own.

there are so many stories to be unfold by the decisions we make..

and every now and than we will have new pple in our life..

a chapter closed..

and another new chapter opened..

no one ever likes a draggy storyline..

but everyone loves a happy ending=)

memories..

2010-06-20T13:31:00.002+08:00

I get to see you once every yr..

every time i went over..

u wld be sitting at the same rocking chair..

wearing that sarong around ur waist and a white singlet..

smiling to us=)

as a young gal back than..

all I know is to eat the CNY goodies and watch the Stephen Chow's movie on tv..

otherwise I wld be running down to the merry-go-round with my brothers..

As I grew older..

the r/s between the both of you turn sour..

but I insist to continue to visit you..

but that particular yr..

I failed to turn up..

and i regret it..

coz I never get to see you again.

10yrs ago on 13th June..

you left this world without saying goodbye to me..

you were in the hospital for a mth.. and no one inform my family..

its was saddening and I remembered I cried really loud when your coffin was pushed into that orange hole..

and all my dad could say..

dont cry..

and all my grand aunt would say..

cry louder..

and all i haf left were memories of you..

if i cld turn back time..

i wish i visited u more often dan once a year..

though we seldom talk..

but deep within me..

i feel attached to you..

I love you..

and i miss you alot..

gong gong chocolate..

Pillar

2010-03-14T15:34:00.002+08:00

I always see myself as an independent girl.

However that is not very true..

I m still the same from most of the girls out there.

when I m tired i need a pillar to lend me a support.

I need a solid pillar which will not collaspe.

At times i wondering the one that i m leaning on isnt it kinda shaky??

The pillar one day would be use as my walking stick and ultimately it wld be my wheelchair..

Devil in Angel

2010-02-20T03:16:00.003+08:00

Many do know that I love cute devils.

as in adorable but I dislike pple being a devil~~

some even knows the story of someone linking me as a devil's daughter when i was back in secondary school.

its strange but somehow a coincident that my adviser code does have the number 666 in it..

for those who do not know the meaning.. i just cut a small paragraph for you

"666 was the secret symbol of the ancient pagan mysteries connected with the worship of the Devil. It is to day the secret connecting link between those ancient mysteries and their modern revival in Spiritualism, Theosophy, etc"

well.. I m not saying I m a devil nor an angel over here..

but wat i want to talk about is how some people can be so angel like but is actually a devil in disguise??

It realli irks me on how some acutally could be a 2 headed snake and one side make a person sounds she is innocent and on the other side make the other person a sinner??

how could anyone actually play both the good and bad person at the same time??

its totally different from telling a white lie..

but rather is how a person u actually trust so much is someone who backstab u all along??

before I even go on.. I just need to make it clear that nothing happen to me~~

just that i could not stand the world of fakeness around me..

what happen to all those that we learn back dan in primary school or secondary school??

i m talking about moral education~~ haha..

so what with all the pretending to be nice and yeah u r my best friend or watever..

when behind my back u saying bad things to me..

or even better.. u dun say bad things about me..

but deep down in ur heart..

u dislike me to a certain extent..

not coz i m prettier dan u or watever..

okay fine even if i m prettier dan u..

or got more friends dan u..

tat is not my fault..

reflect on ur own actions..

treat people nice coz u really care about them n u love them..

Stop being someone who look so innocent but u have so much angers/hates in ur narror heart~~

it never worth to compare yourself to me or to any other people..

coz god had created us in a unique way so we can learn from one another..

accept a person for who they are..

guide them the right path..

show them the way..

but dun backstab or even hate others..

coz its just so tiring to pretend~~

2010

2010-01-23T00:45:00.004+08:00

*Spring Cleaning blog*

**Wipe Wipe**

**Wash Wash**

Welcome to 2010..

Happy New Year everyone=)

Pls kindly pardon me for not updating my blog as often as i could..

had been really busy..

Of coz 2010 is a brand new start..

a brand new run..

so of coz a brand new layout for my bloggie=p

January is coming to an end soon..

wat i busy with??

work and also my bdae celebrations..

and of coz more work=D

Shall update more pictures soon=)

Gt to slp~~ jogging session in the morning!!

Yes before I go~~

I am officially 24yrs old.. (not as if its a new stage)

but yeah i m older..

Durian cake from Carlton Hotel from my GG girls..

thanks for the simple celebration at BarStop.

appreciate it=)

Promise more pictures soon..

been awhile

2009-11-25T16:55:00.003+08:00

there are many things that is happening ard me..

i didnt have time to post anyting

didnt have time to play facebook games.

been awhile since i last watched a movie till last week went to watch 2012 n raging phoneix..

been awhile since i went to catch prawns till last nite..

been awhile since i went to ktv..

been awhile since i play mj..

been awhile since i went for late nite supper till monday went to eat with shan..

there is just so many things for me..

but it didnt matter to me..

i was excatly affected..

coz i haf been so bz tat i dunoe wat day is todae..

festive season is coming..

xmas..

2010..

my bdae..

seriously i m getting older..

n i had decided..

n m determined to make it happen..

2010 is going to be a fantastic yr for me=)

plannings...

Cant Fall Aslp

2009-10-10T04:59:00.002+08:00

It had been over a week since I've Insonmia..

Currently I m still awake after being out since 9am.

survey, meeting, captain ball, work, clubbing..

and now its 5am and i m still wide awake with an appt at eunos at 12pm.

I went to wiki and search in regards to the term Insomia.

After reading thru what are the various types.. n

i tink i m suffering from Transient Insonmia~~

Stress will caused insonmia.

there are a few kinds of insonmia and mine belonging to

Midde Insonmia: waking during the middle of the nite(which i usually do and wake up at 2plus and 4plus.), difficulty maintaining slp..

Did you know if u sleep less dan 8 hours and more dan 8 hours you will increase the risk of dying faster?

I didnt know till i read it in wiki..

i need my beauty slp..

B&J Cookie Dough

2009-09-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

Nope I still didnt get to eat my dosage of B&J Cookie Dough..

There is sth abt me maybe some of u will know..

when i m feeling down..

or rather super upset..

or sth is bothering me..

i need my dosage of b&j cookie dough..

fall in love with it.. honestly..

but i cant always eat it mah..

else will put on alot of weight..

anyway this is the period where i will be super busy..

yes i have a year end goal to hit..

am going for it..

and D actually promised me he will buy me a big tub of B&J cookie dough

at the end of the year..

provided i hit my goal..

yeah..

PS: i m not running my goal coz of this ice cream k.. lol..

Unlocking the 2nd Prison

2009-09-06T16:03:00.005+08:00

Yellow Ribbon Project was launched in May 2000..

Every year there are 10,000 ex-convicts/rehab pple been released.

This year, yellow ribbon project had done sth out of the box.

The Yellow Ribbon Prison Run.

I was there helping out at the starting point and the finishing point.

Imagine me waking up 430 and make my way down as I need to reach at 530am??

Tie a yellow ribbon around the old oak tree~~
The start point is at Changi Village..
This is the starting point where Teo Chee Hean actually unlocking the gate to free everyone so they could start the run..
Heard that next year will be sth different.. haha..
cant wait to see it.

Before every start of the run, u need to do a warm up..
Cara who is a free-lancer for such things is there to help pple to get it started..
okay there are abt 6000 participants who is there to take part.

Everyone is waiting for the gate to be open.. they just cant wait to get it started..

Yes Minister of Defence Mr Teo Chee Hean was there to unlock the 2nd prison for all so everyone could run..

He supports it whole heartedly and even took part in the 5km run..

the students from Loyang Secondary School who was there perform a dance..

The PACs inmates sang for us..

and wow.. i m impressed with their talents.

some of them are ex-convicts..

and yes they can sing too.

got a guy actually went to join or rather had been spotted by Hardy to join sg idol=)

the songs they sang is realli nice=p

The emcees for the day was Muttons to Midnight
Yes they had spiced up the atmosphere too=)

Chinese "Bento" lol..

they food was not bad..

cooked by the inmates..

Anyway it was really a great event.

Definately going to support it..

Everyone deserve a 2nd chance as long as they change over a new leaf..

Love

2009-09-02T13:31:00.002+08:00

During my trip in Desaru~~

Col. shared with us why is vision board impt to us~~

I told myself i need to make one and put it in my room~~

been procrastinating for awhile to look for nice pics and the material to hang it in my room..

so below are the pple i love,

some places i love,

ideals i love..

of coz it goes without saying i love my parents

I love my gals from secondary school..

of coz there are other frenz from my poly time dat i love too..

didnt have much time to put it in..

of coz i love louis~~

my bestie friend who always listen to my nonsense and help me when i needed..

i want to own a place of my own and design my home..

i want to go to Australia and New Zealand..

of coz i wanna to get marry~~ my ideal gown n ring=p

financial freedom and lots of assets of my own..

and nevertheless to hit mdrt for my career..

I m a simple gal who is easily contented..

so at the moment this are wat i love~~ as time goes by i prob will have more things/places/pple and ideals~~ hahah

Happier Me

2009-08-13T03:17:00.002+08:00

Many knew I went for a training in Desaru

Awarness Before Change..

I learnt alot from there..

Seriously I didnt think things could be so simple..

Why do I need to make it so complicated??

Now that I've let all my vengence and anger that is within me for so many yrs..

I finally see myself happier..

Seriously..

I apologised to those in the same sharing group with me..

where i cried and share my story for 45mins..

after letting out and saying out what was kept within me for so many yrs..

I just feel so much lighter..

I m just like a small gal..

Strawberry milkshake from mac donald..

peanut porridge from peace centre..

i know u still love me as much as before no matter how i treat u..

I love u still=)

Yes.. Seriously
the trip had make me into a more positive person..
a happier person..
the anger and hatred i carried for so long..
has vanished..

Tweet Tweet

2009-07-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

Yes..

Tweet Tweet stands for twittering..

Many months ago i first heard the word twitter over on the radio..

someone like me had been living in the well for awhile..

anyway.. i didnt know wat it is..

i dunoe what is so fun abt it..

till now i still dunoe..

lol..

oh well..since my dear jamie asked me to get an acct..

i just get 1 lor..

its the same when someone ask me to get a friendster..

dan follow by facebook..

so follow me on twitter..

joy-keychain its the same as my blog address username=)

Joy

2009-07-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

Ever since I was born, I am the JOY of my parents life..

I didnt really try to comprehend the meaning of joy..

all i know was JOY == HAPPY

I went to search in dictionary.com and the results are:

1) the emotion of great delight or happiness caused by something exceptionally or satisfying; keen pleasure;elation

2) a source or cause of keen pleasure or delight; something or someone greatly valued or appreciated

3) the expression or display of glad feeling

4) a state of happiness

Anyway although my name is Joy..

I didnt really have a joyful childhood.

I remember vividly when I was young,

I always fall sick and have to stay in the hospital several times..

When I was in lower primary I always cry when someones bully me..

I have to start working at a very young age..

I cant go to the playground as my mum disallow saying it was dirty..

there were many other things..

but like wat pple always say..

dirty linen cannot be wash in public..

But as I grow older..

I realised I could be JOYful if I could bring JOY to others..

I learnt..

my favourite phase: when you are sad, think of me and u will be happy.. coz my name is joy and Joy equeals to happy=)

Life is full of ups and downs..

why not spend more time staying Joyful and spend lesser time feeling like shit..

silence

2009-07-09T01:58:00.002+08:00

sometimes silence doesnt means nothing.

there is a limit to everything including my kindness.

stop pushing ur way in though i kept quiet abt it..

reflect on what u had done before saying or rather commenting on others.

if u dun practice what u preach dan dun preach..

sometimes i m just a simple gal who get push around..

but simple gal sometimes do get upset n angry too..

dun act as if u know me inside out...

coz u dun..

there r things i will choose to say to the selected ones is coz they comprehend it better..

i going back to my silence days again..

PS: dun worry dear.. its not abt u=)

Flashback..

2009-06-26T00:44:00.007+08:00

As i'm typing this entry..

i asked myself where had she gone to??

the following pictures were pictures before my operation,during and after..

less dan 2 months it will be 2yrs since my operation..

I love myself..

satisfied with my assets in a way or another..(minus the fats of coz)
there was nothing there to remind me of anything..

I miss the old me..

i used to be so confident..

So hack care how other looks at me..

So daring..

y the sad look??

saw the plaster on my neck??

it was painful to draw the cells out from my neck..

When I still lead a carefree life..

When I could only think of what going to be left on my neck..

this was the last picture taken before my operation.

i regret not taking more of it..

2yrs ago, i finally plucked up my courage to go to the polyclinc..

the lump was there for awhile on my neck..

it wasnt visible but i could feel it since january.

i always treat it as my birthday present since i discover it in january 2007 during my preparation for my 21st bdae. .

I was scared to go for a check up though the doc did tell me it might be thyroid..

i brushed it away for many months..

till before my trip to thailand in 2007, i was sick..

i went to polyclinic to see a doc..

common flu and cough..

but i duno y i told the doc abt the lump..

that when i haf to go to ttsh for my blood test result for thyroid.

after my return, little did i know that i have to for a series of tests..

i didnt tot anything serious till the hospital tried to contact me..

a day after they withdraw cells from my neck..

i've to go back the next day..

i went back alone to ttsh..

i didnt tell anyone except a few close ones..

the doc spoke to me..

my reaction was stunned..

i stepped out of the room and kept crying..

i called miew..i dunoe wat to do..

i was so scared..

21yrs old..cancer cells found.. i was alone..

the doc arrange an operation date for me..

so that was it..

Miew,lian and my mum accompany me to the hospital..

i woke up they were there.

n i remembered asking miew for my hp..

the 1st pic i took after i woke up from my op..

i remembered she even scolded me to be so vain taking picture..

I thanks those who came down n visit me.

with the gifts they gave me..

balloons from baofa..

sunflower from joyce..

pillow from lian n miew..

though it had been close to 2yrs..

but i still appreciate those who came..

After i got discharged from the hospital..

seriously i dare not look into the mirror..

i kinda hate the scar.

i felt so lost at that time..

things werent going well for me..

seriously i m emotionally affected by the caterpillar on my neck..

over the months..

i wish it was just a nightmare..

i lost my confidence..

everywhere i go..

i always feel someone is looking at my "pet"..

i remember a kid was looking at me but her mum just drag her and say dont look at it..

i remember pple saying i took my own life..

negative thoughts just goes around me...

during that time i was looking for a choker to hide that "pet"

i remembered asking a fren where to get those names necklace..

once i wore a necklace/choker to hide the "pet"..

daniel told me i shldn't hide it..

in fact he told me i shld haf more confident and not be affected by others..

i remembering louis always tell me: u look cool/fierce.. pple will be scare of u..

another funny incident was joyce's bdae.. her cousin asked me wat happened..

i told him i was robbed at a back alley and he actually believed it..

thinking the robber actually slash my neck with a knife..

when my fren asked me was it pain..

physically it wasnt..

emotionally yes it was..

now the scar is slowly fading away..

some just forgot abt the operation i had..

some will still be concern and if i need to go back for any check ups or when is my next check up..

but to me..

is a "pet" i haf to keep forever..

no matter how fine or not visible it is now..

it is still there..

sometimes when i meet up with pple who dunoe abt my scar..

i will tell them abt my thyroid op..

actually i really hope the scar will just disappear..

i wan the old me back..

March Event

2009-05-30T16:25:00.005+08:00

some of the event in march..

nobby flew to taiwan..

n yes he is back now..

haha but the picture is up now after he had ord=p

it wasnt just d 5 of us..

still got simin n edwyn.. n their frenz janice n i forget the guy name..

anyway yummy food

but daryl,nobby,edwyn n me got diahorrea due to the 7-up i tink.. 19th March 2009

meet up with my bao beis..

i tink there are other pictures from nat camera..

yes gals.. since miew is back now..

we can meet up liao..

21st March 2009
Elvin's bdae
yes it was a belated bdae..
n s usual he is drunk..
lol..
i wun post his ugly picture of his drunk state here..
it was a black theme..
so much of fashion student ar?? no creative lei..
lol..
but i still must say.. ELVIN is doing well in his fashion design=)
y i say so?? be at zouk on 26th june n u will know y=p

some pictures are repeated.. but i just like to see so many frenz with me=)

23rd march 09

Dar Dar, Dan & Ah Yong & Me

ate the food below..

yes it was my belated bdae treat=)

they noe i want to eat the stingray..

the ao jian.. n chicken wings..

omg..

yeah i travel all the way to jurong west to eat it=p

after that we had a bowling session at tamah jurong=p

haha..
jenn & louis came to join us..

no picture of ah yong n yao qing..

6th march 09

u know when a persons want to club

they will just call someone n go down no matter how many pple are there?

yeah i head down with hw n elvin=)

bump into evelyn n her frenz there..

yesh i need my clubbing session soon..
we played 5, 10..

i got it 3 times in a row..

dear elvin was so kind to me for the 5 secs rules..

as i drank.. he is suppose to count...

so he count 1 dan run down to o bar n up again dan he count 2..

JT$%$%J$#$J#%J$%$K$

stupid elvin

see elvin picture up there?? he is trying to use Erika's phone..

which he had lost it.. lucky it was Sumvung.. not Sumsung

that all.. stay tune for april pictures.. n may's=)

tell me sth new??

2009-05-25T04:16:00.002+08:00

Everytime when i picked myself up from where i've dropped off.

u just haf to screw my life with new tricks..

tell me sth new..

or show me sth new..

or rather make my life simpler please..

its simply tiring to try all ways to solve problems..

the least u could do is to stop creating or rather adding to the amount..

i rather u die..

seriously..

deep within me..

i m cursing u..

i dun care how they feel..

coz its been a long time..

i see myself smiling happily without worrying..

PS: can all the losers who are related to me pls get out of my life!!

Feb's Pictures

2009-05-18T17:09:00.009+08:00

For month of Feburary which is like 3months back.. lol..

well pictures are not in sequence..

28th Feb 2009 @ Marina Barrage

UT Monthly Social

Superbowl - It used to be full of students going there to bowl..

it was my favourite place to hang out with cindy,fel and jack..

those were the days when i remembered vividly Jack following behind a slow moving bowling ball in the lane..

After following halfway, he just give the ball a push and it was a STRIKE~~

Now its gone..

This picture was taken when they are demolishing the building..

So i just took what its leftover..

the front view..

The views..

This is the starting point..

where we all meet up at Anson Road Mac Donald for lunch.

Flying kites=)

During the Journey

14th Feb @ Balestier & Raffles City

Valentine Day Outing

Dinner @ Founder Bak Ku Teh

My favourite flowers from Louis^.^

okay i m tired..

Who say Valentine Day is only for 2??

7th Feb @ Sentosa

Crazy Gang Outing

we saw a wedding preparation @ sentosa

The pple who went=)

camwhore

Our Execise..

As Crazy As Always

4th Feb 2009 @ Harbour Front

Shan Shan's Bdae

Its dinner time and i m hungry~~~~

random shots

4th Feb 2009 @ ARENA

I went to meet up with some of my colleagues after Shan's bdae dinner

The lovers=)

The guy on the left offered to help we gals to take pictures..

and it result to..

he taking with his friends.. lolx

So that all for now=)

more pictures to be up next week..

Get For What You Pay

2009-05-09T22:17:00.003+08:00

I met Daniel & Louis for Lunch over at Tampines..

We ate Pizza Hut and after which we just walked around..
There is sth abt me wanting to buy monopoly..

Yesh a few days back i just played Risk over at Louis's house with Roy & Abby.. (refer to Abby's blog)

N yes i m a damn cheapo when come to buying this games..

I not willing to spend sth that cost me $40-$70 and i dun play often..

So we headed to Pasa Malam at Tamp int..

we walked all the way in n i cant find it..

so we walked out..

n i saw it.. it was there!!

they got the disney,spongebob n some other..

so off we went to daniel hse~~

Yesh.. i bought the normal one~~

as u can see from the pictures everything look very original..

when we started to play i didnt realised there were spelling errors on the cards n the gameboard.

oh ya.. When u enter GO!! the gameboard wrote: collect $2000!!!! it suppose to be $200 lor..

n Louis drew a chance card that wrote: Visit to Christ Redeemer. If you pass Go collect $200..

n there we were.. the 3 of us.

looking for Christ REdemmer~~~~~

n there wasnt any!!

so off we went to restart the game..
n yes Louis was leading in the game.. lolx.. too bad..

Oh ya Daniel & I kept entering into Jail..

So there we were.. spending a couple of hours at Daniel's House playing monopoly..

Oh n i bought the set for $15...

so here is a shot of Louis editing one of the cards' title deed=p

Once Upon a Time

2009-05-06T14:44:00.001+08:00

I didnt realised what i had till u told me via msn..

i didnt even realised u noticed me back dan..

prob its time..

time to get back..

Entry 171

2009-05-03T04:53:00.002+08:00

its 5am in the morning.

just came back from prawning at Azooroo Ave.

1st time there, and u can catch lobster n prawns over there.

same pricing as bishan side de=)

3hrs $30 bucks.

okay its all words again. coz i didnt take any pictures.

anyway tuesdae there is ladies nite.

from 6pm to 3am 1 for 1 rod free=)

okay dun ask me y i m not aslp. basically i m editing pictures from previous events so i can blog abt it..

n benben can see the picz=)

well off to editing.

blog again next time.. soon.. hopefully tml=)

The Old Place

2009-04-23T06:02:00.002+08:00

it's a place we used to hang out..

so often that i could say almost every week or alternate weeks..

we would reached early and go in via citibank credit card for FREE!!

Elvin got drunk on his 22nd bdae there.

a place where all frenz would come together n dance their nite away.

We got a usual spot near the dj counter.

coz the aircon was there.

But today when we start to revisit the place after so so LLOOOOOONGGGGGGGGGGG~~~

the usual spot is no longer there and became an exit.

we dun even remember what time was the 1 for 1 promo.

the group of pple changed.

somehow i missed wendy n gang(minzy,bew and blah blah..too many to be named..)

I was there when nicole was in sg last yr with elvin n his darlings..

well this showed the world is still revolving and life still have to go on no matter wat are the changes..

i guess its my first time to club with Na..

n i realised i dun have a pic with Na alone!!

haha..

oh and both of them just love to molest me that nite.. haha

dun give chance de lei..

Anyway i have super long posts/pictures since feb yet to upload.

haha.

there is

- UT Marina Barrage,

-Valentine Day,

-Shan Bdae,

-Sentosa,

-Clubbing sessionssszzzz,

-elvin bdae,

-shirleen bdae,

-leses dinner,

- my belated bdae dinner,

-nurul bdae,

-crazy gang minds cafe,

- ifc gathering,

-simin bdae..

most of the pics i had done the pictures to be uploaded..

just that i had been busy..

haha..

Sometime its nice to revisit old places with old frenz..

sometimes its nice to recap those memories of the past..

#168 post

2009-04-05T19:54:00.003+08:00

i m now in the office!!

yes its a sunday 8pm..

i m waiting for the time to go down to meet my client over at east area.

i m pushing myself to the next level..

commitment n discipline..

to those who dunoe.

i m with Prudential now..

n i m enjoying my work more n more..

in fact i m loving it.

no doubt there is a certain degrees of stress..

but its all worth it..

coz i know at the end of everything..

i m not the onli person who benefit=)

silence again

2009-04-02T01:36:00.003+08:00

just by 1 incident that you witness,

u came n judge me n told me off?

if i argued back..

wat the outcome be??

i just had to remain silence again..

if u didnt noe..

let me tell u..

if i m on my way... i wld extend my helping hand..

just like everytime i did..

no matter to where.. i wld ask..

all i want to say is dun let 1 incident and you come and judge me..

i have nth against u..

this entry is just meant to allow me to vent my frustration for i felt that i had been wronged..

screwed!!

2009-03-21T02:24:00.002+08:00

u had totally lose all the respect i have from you since the day u create the trouble and i have to ask my fren for help to solve the problem.

till today u still cant wake up to ur senses..

after so many yrs..

u take the easy way out for the lifestyle u r leading..

while i need to work my way thru for my education and my daily expenses..

u r not the king.

coz u are totally not fit to be one.

if u r not my kin, i prob wld have lead a much better life..

deep down within me i hope u stop creating trouble.

i haf my share of things to worry abt..

so y cant u just stop adding on to it??

ur life is totally screwed up..

Silence All These Years

2009-03-14T14:46:00.005+08:00

i never understand y.

but i guess i will still remain silent..

once awhile i will whine..

n d poor chap haf to knock some sense into me.

but as stubborn as ever..

he,she,u,they all are still my friends

no matter wat.

its just aint enough

2009-03-10T02:07:00.002+08:00

as i m writing this entry

the song "sometimes love just aint enuff" reminds me of the 2 lovely gals..

u know who u are..

but i m not gonna write anything abt love or bgr thingy..

sometimes i pondered to myself.

havent i been putting my effort into it??

when i m striving hard to make it happened..

another "it" came with a big BANG..

sometings just cant push the way thru..

i've done what i can do..

making it work..

i told myself i cant fall..

coz if i do..

everything else will too..

there is a limit to everything..

dun push it..

haircut

2009-03-02T23:18:00.003+08:00

I seriously feel like snipping my hair..

of cox is going to a salon to snip it away.

there is sth abt me..

i dun cut my hair coz i get bored of the hairstyle or coz its messy or my hair is at fault..

i cut it coz i tink my hair is carrying my mood down..

n i want to make it much lighter..

lately i dunoe coz of the cold weather that make me feels sad..

its nice to have this weather..

but well...

not when i m slping alone..

esp when its raining n the thunder just suddenly sounds like a building had collapse..

i was waiting for my fren at the busstop while it was pouring cats n dogs..

while waiting i almost feel like crying..

coz it was a bad day for me that day..

just when i was abt to cry after a super loud thunder..

my phone rang..

n i cant help to luff..

my fren smsed me---"dun be mistaken its not thunder,its juz me farting.. no need to be afraid.. "

anyway back to the haircut..

i seriously dunoe wat hairstyle to cut..

coz i already gt a short hair..

so not many options left..

i remembered there was twice i just walked into my usual salon n said..

my mood is damn bad..

can u do sth to my hair to make me feel better..

yeah its sounds crazy..

but i onli do it coz i trust this 2 stylist..

else i wun even dare to let them handle my hair..

my hair always make my day..

esp if someone compliments it..

oh well.. till i realli get my hair cut..

my cranky feeling will still be there..

January event

2009-02-23T18:44:00.015+08:00

It had been super long since i posted pictures..

well for the benefit of those who wondered how i celebrated my jan.. here it goes..

the events are from the latest to the oldest..

Event:Pathfinder D&D

Date: 29th Jan '08

Venue: Grand Copthrone Hotel(near Zouk)

A nite of fun, laughter and of coz JOY=p

Daniel won the best dress.
Definately without a doubt when the emcee bring out the pole.
Daniel is definately a good dancer=)

The contestants for best dress

Pathfinder give everyone a lucky ang bao
that is my toto ticket however didnt win any.

Lou Hei!! yes can u imagine the food scattered around the table??

but no salmon was wasted.

Venue: In Ramesh's car

Date: 29th Jan 09(Morning)

Event: Back to work

we went back to office to submit cases n collect our ang bao=)

after which we head off to edwin house for lunch n gambling..

Date:23rd-25th Jan 09

Event : Lian's bdae

Venue:Costa Sand Pasir Ris

our checking out of the chalet

we went for our breakfast at BK

She managed to finish the puzzle while the others are playing mj.

edward cullen is a part of her wrapping paper.

lol.

We had our lunch @ fish n co express before the bbq.

we headed over to lian house as she need to return the car to her sis.

n so here we are taking pics with her niece.

the 3 of them went to Giant to buy the food.

I was still at another event..

Nat & Shan went down to check in first.

it was amazing how both of them can play 2 leg mj.

Date:23rd Jan '09

Event:UT Reunion dinner

everyone had to report 9am that day to do spring cleaning.

else there will be a fine of $50 even if u are a minute late.

after cleaning up the office.

we went to si ma lu to pray.

lunch was over at whampoa market=)

wanted to eat the western food however it was not ready=(

We headed to Tai Pei Old People Home after lunch.

giving out oranges and ang bao to them.

its amazing how some of them are old but they are still so lively=)

we headed down to great world city to watch movie

n lastly was dinner=)

Cheers!! Goodbye to yr of rat n hello to the yr of OX..

Date:19th Jan 2009

Event: my birthday

I went to work as per normal that day.

nothing special happened except i sat on a bus that is designed like a bar..

when i left office it was 11plus at nite.

n i took the train home n reach boon keng station excatly at 12midnite.

my bdae wish from dearie=)

thanks jamie for attempting to write it the 2nd time..

Date:18th Jan'09

Event:celebration with my leses

Venue:Raffles City n Marina Barrage

My favourite cake Tiramisu.

thanks leses=)

love u gals lots lots.

It was super windy over at M.B

N when everyone is hyper u cant stop us from having fun..

While i was in natali's car.

Date: 17th Jan 09

Event:Celebrating my 23rd bdae

Venue:O Bar

E4 gals came down giving me a big shock.

they say they werent coming.

but here they are.

dearie almost exposed the surprise.

Can u imagine there are 2 pple birthday on the house that nite??

one is natalie's fren Jac n the other of coz is me lah.

both our name start with J..

both our bdae are on 19th jan.

I was there earli with adeline=)

It was a nite with not many grave drinks=)

i was spared from graveyard, flaming n waterfall. lol.

so ya i wasnt drunk tat nite which is a good thing.

Date: 6th Jan 2009

Venue: pasir ris

event:adeline's 22nd bdae

the unspoken words..

2009-02-13T04:13:00.003+08:00

i have so much to say

but i cant type it out.

i cant say it out.

i m bless with many friends around me.

the old and the new..

i never once forgotten the old in my life.

once awhile i would call or sms n say hi.

thinking back, it is nice to hear from the old fren once awhile too.

i m glad that many actually remember me..

i was touched by the fact that a fren whom i didnt meet for quite awhile..

would remember me in a way or another.

we arent close.

but yet we are close..

it sounds confusing..

but i know tat u know wat i meant.

i thank u for the camera shirt that u bought for me from hk..

though i m sorry i dunoe where it is..

i seriously cant find it.. but i swore i like tat shirt alot..

i thank u for the cute red shirt u bought for me from bkk..

its kinds tight.. but i m trying to lose weight to wear it..

i thank u for not minding that we both have the same shirt..

i thank u for remembering my bdae n got me sth..

though we do not meet up so much often..

but u know and i know..

we both do care for each other..

n yes like i say..

i m happy u remember me..

n i m sad that some others whom i care dun..

sometimes life is just about moving on...

benben once tell me i shld think for myself..

n stop putting others before me..

ben i know u are reading this..

if i could do it..

dan i wouldnt be upset that i have frenz forgotten abt me........

because i care for each n every individual..

no matter how they hurt me..

no matter how they treat me..

maybe like wat jamie dear had said..

"y do u like to treat pple who dun treat u good so nice.."

maybe like wat one of my fren saod..

"is she worth it??"

i asked myself..

i told myself becoz to me..

everyone is worth it in a way or another..

Dior Cherie

2009-02-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

i was out with daryl n shuzhen..

shopping for her bdae pressie we went to DFS at orchard..

they were looking at some bags at LV's..

after tat we went into Dior's..

trust me..

i m not a huge fan of branded stuff..

i would always look at the branded bags n its wallets but i never want to own one of it..

to me.. i always feel its just another bag..

another wallet..

but it is costly..

however when i walked into Dior's..

this particular bag caught my eyes.

Beige Dior Cherie Bag..

but this is the small one..

the one i m looking at is the medium or large size de so i can put my documents..

the medium cost $1320 n the large is $1480..

this is definately going to be one bag i gonna get..

i dun mind if someone buy it for me=p

Raining..

2009-02-06T00:56:00.003+08:00

it rained last nite at 1.55am..

n i can say it was a storm.. realli big storm..

sometimes its is nice to let the raindrops fall..

coz its like the clouds had held the water within it for a long time.

n now it finaly rained..

it felt great letting go of those raindrops..

making the clouds feel lighter,,

NYE & My pressies

2009-01-27T16:31:00.008+08:00

it had been awhile i had posted any pictures.

i wanted to post everything that happened in jan.

eg: adeline's bdae(pending pictures),my bdae,United Team's Reunion Dinner,Lian's bdae,etc..

I realised i yet to post abt the xmas parties i had attended!! omg..

so many things to blog.

oh well..

those who wanna read abt it had to stay tune=p

MY BDAE PRESSIES

below are some(mostly) the pressies i had received..

there are still a few that i had received on the day itself or after my bdae i didnt take its picture. will post in the next entry=p

some of the pictures were taken at oBar or during my bdae dinner..

while some were taken at other point of time last yr..

I realised i do not had any pictures with Roy(Louis's Bro) & his gf Abigail.

thanks everyone for the pressies.

yes i know more to come.. coz there are many whom i had not meet up yet..

31st December 2008

Last day of the year I went to a few places..

first i went over to Liang Court to meet Dar Dar & Ex-colleagues to have 2008's last ktv session.

i didnt expect the party world is so big over there..

well some of the few pictures i took with my hp.

pardon me for the *ghostly * pictures.

Me & Dar Dar=p

Jenn & Me

the ceiling of the room

After the ktv session i bid them goodbye n will see them next year^.^

I went down to Daniel's house to meet up with my colleagues.

Ate the Bee Hoon Kuey which is quite yummy n of coz the chicken wings..

didnt really stay long over there coz Angela n Jacie were leaving too..

Thinking of i need a easier way to go back home.(Daniel stayed at Jurong West)

I tried to find another group to meet.

Eventually i decided to meet up with Jamie, Nat & Shan=)

Angela gave me a lift to jalan toa payoh n i crossed over the bridge.

Met up with them n we headed down to mac pherson petrol station to buy stuff.

it was already 11plus dan.

haha.

Jamie met up with her fren Brendan(pardon me for wrong spelling).

so we headed back to Nat's office for ktv session..

n yes we spend our last sec of 2008 at the office car park.

haha.
we sang, we mj n we ate..

we ate supper n we had mac breakfast.

Its breakfast time!!

Dearie with Nat n a FA tile

Cheers to 2009 a brand new year.

okie i drank green tea that nite coz i was on medication.

Mini dice

e4 gals. having our supper..

Me with Shan n Yi Suo Tile

Smile to the camera=p

Happy New Year

Singing while playing mj.

Jamie's Mini Mahjong.

yeah i spent my last day of 2008 singing ktv.

n i started off my 2009 with singing n mjing..

wooo..

Anyway i will post the other jan event soon. its piling again.. whahaha

what should i type?

2009-01-16T05:04:00.002+08:00

its 5am.

i woke up at 345am to have a drink.

the weather had been pretty cold.

my blankie had been sent off for washing..

how i miss my blankie.

i've finished reading eclipse.

n now i'm just waiting for breaking dawn to reach my hand..

and finish reading that book.

my bdae is in 3 days..

will b celebrating my bdae at o bar tml nite.

miting up with my gals on sundae for dinner.

n back to work on mondae.

trying to fix an appt for tat dae.

wonder if i could close any deal..

even if it is prushield i m happy..

i ought to be celebrating my bdae or take a break.. tat wat u said..

but no plans no prog no dates no appt.

i tinking if i would be stuck working in the office,.

oh well..

when things doesnt go so well,

all things will go unsmoothly too.

i pondered over the things i said to u..

was there a hidden meaning in between the words?

if no dan y did it hurt me so much?

maybe it had been awhile since

- u kiss me good nite

- u hugged me to bed

- assured me everything going to be alrite when i had a nitemare

- play uno/reversi

- we last watch tv in the living room

- u dished up sth yummy for me

- u covered the blankie for me when i m cold

maybe i just simply miss been near you..

u are not far..

always so close..

u stood by me no matter wat..

but y m i feeling u are so far..

so out of reach??

explosion

2009-01-04T15:47:00.003+08:00

i always love telling pple tat a brand new year a brand new start

however till today after 4 days of the new year

i m not having a good start at all.

somehow or rather the whole world is pissing me off..

i kept my cool..

yet to explode..

but its a time bomb ticking away..

i know i cant have things going my way..

i know i cant let things turn out the way i wish it will be..

but dun take my kindness n coolness for granted..

coz i have a feeling i will go crazy soon..

blame the weatherman

2008-12-21T05:57:00.002+08:00

i m down with a bad sore throat..

my voice sounds sexy..

i shldnt had ate the peanuts yesterdae

n ice cream today..

but i blame it on the weather man for having such a cold n hot weathers..

i cant predict when is gonna rain..

i m feeling moody..

i blame it on the weather..

i cant slp..

i blame it on the weather..

seriously..

i feel lousy..

i admit i am never the greatest friend ever one could have..

but i do care for every single one of my friend out there..

i mean no matter when u r not feeling well..

or have a fight with ur bf/gf..

or got tired of ur parents nagging..

or sianx at work..

i dun mind to lend a listening ear..

i admit pple changes..

especially when the environment changes..

life have to move on..

pple go to new places n mit new friends..

got new hobbies..

things just started to change..

i know life cant stuck at one point forever..

but sometimes i wish the changes didnt happen..

so at least u wun change..

maybe u didnt realised..

u tink u had not abandon the old..

u didnt...

but sometimes the old n the new just cant click on well...

n not everything is just ur way and its the final say..

we have our choice too..

he told me u changed alot..

i wished i could denied..

but looking back at the pictures we took back dan..

yes u did..

the innocent pure white cat had turned to a wild playful leopard..

for a moment of time u did started to grow up..

became sensible abit..

but suddenly u just start to party ur life away..

dun ever make me say i used to know u so well but now u had change so much..

i not sure if u r still the one i used to know..

coz if i do say that out..

it can only means i give up.

Linda & Dan Wedding - 14 sept 2008

2008-12-05T18:56:00.007+08:00

I took quite a long time to post these happy occassion.

The very first time i became a Jie Mei.

I really feel happy for dar dar n ah dan..

enjoy the pictures~~

Sms wishes for the couples n was being displayed on the wall=)
smiles for the camera=)

The Sabo..

seriously the groom leg was waxed!!

it was hilarious for them to wear the bikini suit=p

N i was the in-charge for negotiating..

We were really kind to them to treat them eating mooncake to celebrate the mooncake festival=)

however they didnt know it was homemade mooncake..

it was sour,sweet,bitter n spicy.

each of the brothers n including the groom need to take one..

i guess those who took the sweet is the lucky one.

the agar agar was made with lime n green chillis..

different keys put in different bags for them to open the gate..

the bikini suit for them..

n they were suppose to form the sentence i luv linda..

n also the agar agar where i insert the real key to it.. =)

The preparation

The moments~~

me myself n i=)

where u had nth to do u just play with ur camera=p

The young couple for the nite=)

The sisters=)

Their room!!!

I love the custom made bedsheet..

so cute lah..

The sisters cum sabo team.

Me with the newly wed=)

She is my beloved dar dar..

when i was back in starhub she was the one who i can talk to n understand how i feel regarding my work.

she was with me for lunch..

though we seldom mit up now but i make sure we have our mj every now n dan to keep in touch..

oh n she is my long lost sister coz we both surname lim=)

lolx.

Season of Gatherings=p

2008-11-27T02:37:00.003+08:00

okay do forgive me for not posting the sept onwards pics..

i had been too busy..

anyway soon another few more days it will be december..

soon 2008 will be over..

n we will be welcoming 2009..

seriously i feel time really flies..

saturdays for december are fully booked..

6th december - f409 & ifc xmas dinner @ hotpot culture

13th december - May Primary Gathering

20th December - Crazy Gang gathering(Zac & Gang)

23rd - 24th december - UT Xmas party @ Aranda

25th December - Keith House Celebration(not confirm)

27th - 28th December - Dar Dar's Jie Meis & Dan's Xiong Dis' Gathering @ East Coast Chalet

well more or less its confirm with these dates..

i still pending for my leses for a date..

but i guess u gals gonna kill me..

no saturdaes left.. =X

anyway hopefully i can mit u gals on xmas eve..

it will be nice to have peaceful xmas=)

After Xmas will be 2009 n soon it will be my BDAE!!!

yeah its 2 big candles n 3 small ones..

my bdae will be on a monday..

so i have to go office no matter wat coz of monday meeting n work=)

after my bdae its Chinese New Year~~

yeah another gathering..

haha..

the season of ang bao n gambling gonna start=)

I wish 2009 will be a wonderful year.

i working hard..

pictures

2008-11-12T22:30:00.010+08:00

i promised to upload pictures..

well.. i decided to post till august..

stay tune for september to november..

there are still alot of pictures i wanna post.

but kinda lazy..

some of the pictures might look pretty small n cant see much..

forgive me.. i didnt want my entry to be super long till u guys have to keep strolling down..

which i tink this entry is long enuff already..

august 2008

09/08/2008

there was karen bdae n we celebrated it on national day=)

i went for appt in the morning dan headed down to taka for lunch with the gals=)

after which we went to nat office for ktv session..

alrite forgive me for the small pictures..

i was thinking of squeezing all together.

30/08/08
UT went for a healthy walk=)
we started off quite earli..
it was really an experience..
good exercise i should say..

the roads..

starting out..

along my way i found a bird nest..

a red log..

a giant dick tree..

sg efiel tower..

a man in the jungle.

d house up on a tree.

the giants.

the t rex.

n the "change colour lizard"

me n me n more me..

fun!!!

29/08/08

baofa louis n i went for dinner at suntec..

yeah we went to muthu curry!!

we were walking to the busstop n start taking pictures..

baofa was the hero..

he went to eat the fish eye..

it was his first attempt..

n see his expressions.. lolx

snap snap n snap!!

24/08/08

wendy 21st bdae

17/08/08

Hanwei & Terrence bdae!!

there was 2 parties i need to attend that nite..

so we went to hanwei's which was celebrated at mel's place.

well..

the boss n lady boss thought it was my bdae n they wishes me happy bdae.

lolx..

great to see all the old customers there..

n was nice to go back there..

hanwei 21st bdae.

well sorry i cant stay for long..

got another show need to run to.

but i believe u enjoyed urself lots..

hanwei n terrence grp pictures=)

sorry terrence we didnt get to sabo u n eat ur bdae cake..

or did i ate?

lolx..

doesnt matter..

july 2008

8th july was UT's quarter planning n review.

its was kinda far at raffles country club!!

well i pledge to hit for my starclub..
i had my thumbprint there.

but i guess kinda hard unless this 3 months miracle happens..

lolx..

saw a cute pig n ya i kissed it.. hoping it will bring me luck!!

June 2008

on 11th june 2008..

i was home n had a craving for donuts.

i was supposed to meet dearie to return her sex n the city's vcd..

when i met her at my house void deck..

she bought for me donut..
n trust me!!
i didnt tell her i wanted to eat..
somehow or rather she read my mind.. hehe..

December 2006

d crazy gang at xmas 2006..funan sakae sushi..

21st bdae jan 2007

i realised i didnt post any of my 21st pictures..
was reading dear's blog n memories of mine flood back=p
well another 2 more months its mine..

pardon me i dun have all the pictures n mostly this are pics from hanwei's camera.

grp pics..

gambling

d mess..

celebration with my leses..

me n mummy dearest..
n thanks for my leses for the bdae cake=)

d guy to guy scenes..

d cuties..

STAY TUNED~~

2008-11-09T12:34:00.004+08:00

alrite i have pretty much to post.. but where should i start??

i m looking back on the archives..

well..

i shall see what pictures do i have in my lappy n i will post=)

anyway stay tune to my blog..i gonna post tons of pictures..

SSCCCCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAMSSSS

2008-11-08T16:53:00.002+08:00

OH SHIT!!!

i was blogging n i posted the entries le!!!!

but it didnt want to be posted about it..

oh well.. just let me scream.......................

and i m screaming within!!!

* PULL HAIR**

ARGH

insomia??

2008-10-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

i seriously do not know what is wrong with me..

its 2am in the morning n i m still awake typing on my laptop..

n i have to wake up at 730am later!!!!

whats on my mind??

bestie was asking me what is wrong with me recently..

y so gloomy..

y dun wanna talk to him on e phone..

but i have no freaking ideal what is wrong..

m i tinking too much on my job??

but no lei recently week after week i have good appts..

m i tinking abt my family??

prob.. too many things are happening in my household..

i kept asking wat is the main reason that is making me feel so sad n wanting to eat chocolate ice cream every week..

maybe i didnt satisfy my craving for the ice cream??(*hint hint ice cream time*)

i felt like i had walked into a maze..

wanting to get out..

i kept trying..

when i looked up, the world is spinning..

when i closed my eyes, i saw white lights..

when i wanted to scream, nothing came out..

when i tried to reach for something, i cant feel it..

i was telling bestie earlier i had so much to said..

so many things to whine n complain n tell him..

but it got stuck..

i remain silent..

suddenly i dunoe where to start..

i dunoe what to say..

1 more day to genting..

min was asking if i m happy..

BUT i wasnt!!!!

last week i was so looking forward to it..

this week suddenly i felt wha so fast ar..

i used to look forward to holiday trips..

what is bothering me???

3mths to go..

14 weeks to go..

89 days to go..

2062hrs to go..

and i m turning 23 years old..

i suddenly felt old.. okay for the past couple of mths i felt this way..

i yet to achieve anything yet except for some certs from schools lah..

maybe add on some experiences from work??

and having great frenz..

i thought of catching a musical on my bdae..

Rodgers & Hammerstein’s Cinderella

but well i doubt anyone will be so interested to catch it especially on a monday..

i told bestie that i wanted to watch it on my bdae..

he said okay.. but i think i shldnt bored him to death too..

i m so hard to please..

he said okay le mah..

maybe i just dun wanna bored u pple..

hence i decided...

I M NOT GOING TO CELEBRATE MY BDAE..

maybe i cant accept i m turning old..

oh wait.. i was just checking out the website for the musical..

Guess what????

they do not have slots on MONDAY!!!

so oh well..

i dun have to think about the musical on my bdae anymore..

yeah..

i dun mind pressies though..

lolx.. but pls no bdae cake!!! seeing the candles on the cake reminds me i m getting old..

yeah i know my bdae is like so far away..

but cant deny the fact that time passes very fast..

esp if u count down by week after week!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in a flash it will be november..

dan december...

xmas..

dan we will be welcoming 2009..

omfg~~~

time really waits for no one!!

omg..

what have i been doing all my life??

genting

2008-10-19T12:54:00.005+08:00

i dunoe what i want to say..

i have many many things on my mind..

but which should i start first?

i really need a break..

hoping the coming weekends will seriously help me to unwind..

i went there twice..

once when i was sec 2 with fel,christal n janice plus christal family.

a fun filled trip..

but cant compare to 2003 feb v day..

haha..

i went with my gals..

n nat's family=)

when bunch of gals are having fun..

i remembered we kept playing topshot..

i remembered we took super lots of pics with funny positions..

haha..

n we got roses as v day pressie..

we went to played the flying venture..

i will be going up on thursday nite first..

hanwei n gang will oso be going up but on friday morning..

dar dar n gang will go up on friday nite..

PLS LET ME SCREAM N HAVE FUN N UNWIND!!!!

whats on my mind??

2008-10-17T01:09:00.005+08:00

i had nt been blogging for a mth plus??

had been pretty busy d past mth..

there was nat bdae on d 11th n 13th for celebration.. (no piz with me for nat bdae though i tink i didnt take much oso)

dar dar wedding on d 14th..

louis bdae on d 15th..

dan wat other major events?? hmmm

lolx.. i seriously having short term memory..

went clubbing on d 4th oct..

8th was dearie's bdae..

i was unwell..but am glad i went.. else i will miss the romantic sight=)

10th was joyce's bdae..

12th oct went for class gathering dan to zac place for hari raya..

there are alot of pictures i wanna post.. i seriously have tons of it waiting to be post..

they are screaming at me..

okay 13th was sab bdae..

17th is today!! its sweetie ed's bdae..

WHAT WITH THE OCTOBER BABIES!!!!!

broke lei..

i had sleepless nights..

my mind is on alot of things..

i m running for sales..

earning more..

so i can give daddy to see a good doctor..

so i can lighten mummy burden..

so i can get the irritating shit off my back..

so i can shut ur bloody mouth n u stop asking for money,..

so life can be more peaceful..

so i dun need to ask frenz for help when in need..

i didnt regret starting this career.

i didnt give up on this career..

i dun care how u see me..

coz i tink i m here to create hope create dreams and create miracles..

i always asked myself this.. if years ago..

my parents still continue with the saving plans for me n my bros..

i prob have a sum of money now also..

but it wasnt their fault..

was that dumb ass cheated my parents hard earned money..

i cursed u to be torn into a million zillion pieces and rot in hell..

it because of u this kind of pple around that make pple lose faith in insurance companies..

but i still believe..

i still have faith in insurance..

though i m paying money for a piece of paper..

but i m paying for a peace of mind..

to ensure that when i m hospitalised i will be covered..

dun have to worry abt the bills..

but damn i have to get my medical report first before i can cover with the prushield..

anyway i m paying to make sure if i pass on..

my family have a sum of money.

for the funeral..

for the time i m not there to give them financial support..

the next thing i wanna to take up is a savin plan.

coz i dun wan years down the road..

i have to start worrying about children education or my retirement..

there are pple who dun understand y i came into this career.

its hard..

i never once said it was easy..

but i hope u trust me..

i had not slept well for days.. for weeks..

i not sure y..

d day i stepped out.. i was sure i m not going to step back in..

it had been a mth plus..

trust me..

i had been too nice that u r taking advantage of me..

i didnt scream at u..

didnt talkback to u..

if i did i guess u would had fainted..

there are some things still best to be left unspoken..

Me, Myself & I

2008-09-07T15:55:00.003+08:00

I start to hate ur character..

U always bother how other thinks

bother how they feel abt you..

U always want them to have the best..

U always think of them..

coz of ur weakness..

Ur fren told u that this is ur strength but is also ur weakness..

Face it..

U CANT SATISFY THE WHOLE GOD DAMN WORLD!!!!

Sick

2008-09-06T14:50:00.002+08:00

Had been sick the past days..

or rather the past 1 week=(

Damn..

lying on the bed n going to the docs..

and of coz eating..

that all i had been doing..

the medication did not help much..

in fact it had make me so drowsy that i laid on slp on day n nite...

feeling much more better now and i guess i have to get back on my feet to work..

I left with 20 days to run my challenge..

I take it as my bdae pressie if i clear my challenge and oso the first trip from prudential..

I already lost the Bangkok trip..

I dun wan to lose this OSAKA trip..

well i hope i could close 1 case a day for the next 20 days..

n all this 20 cases is onli as cheap as $1/day protection..

The challenge is till end sept..

But i have to minus the fact that natali's bdae, Dar Dar Wedding,louis bdae n eve bdae..

so many things so little time..

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Miss

2008-08-24T02:34:00.003+08:00

I realised I have lost my sense of direction..

Suddenly I feel everything is going too fast for me..

Tat nite was suppose to be a happy occassion coz it was a bdae party

but i shed a tear..

Alrite it was more dan a tear, it was teardrops..

It just rolled down my cheek but it wasnt obvious..

I miss the old days..

i miss d times i was young i always go to my aunt hse n slp..

I miss d times my neighbour always come to my hse to play with me..

I miss when i used to play kites at the soccer field..

I miss the times when my mum always bring me to Auntie Sharon hse

I miss the times when after exams we get to play games in class

I miss the times when we hang around at the study corner

I miss the times when we went out during special festivals n take pictures..

I miss the time when we exchange letters with each other..

I miss the times when i go to ur bdae n get to eat the fried bee hoon ur mum cook..

I miss the time when after school we sat at the canteen to chat

I miss the time when he look after the goose tat appear no where

I miss the times when i go ur hse to see chubby

I miss the mee goreng cooked by ur maid

I miss the times when we went for nite walks

I miss the times when i go seoul garden

I miss the times when we all carry the same things..

I miss the times when we go chalet

I miss the times when we went genting

I miss the times when we went cycling

I miss the times when we just go out for makan

I miss the times

I miss those days

I miss u all..

Updates

2008-08-16T15:02:00.014+08:00

I reached there at 10am.
though my appt is at 1020 but its always better to be earli.
I glad i did.. coz everything ended at 2pm.
I did a normal ECG test again when they registered me.
Saying they need the latest report..
fair enough..
After the test, i went inside the consultation room..
He looked kinda familiar.. but i really cant remember where i saw the doctor before..
he also find me familiar.
It was kinda a deja vu feeling.

Anyway the doctor told me he need me to do a threadmill ecg.
Luckily i asked for a slot for tat day.
else i need to go back on another day.
its like i need to walk a distance in.. n i need to apply leave again..
didnt had my breakfast.
n i cant take my lunch before the threadmill starts at 12pm=(
At 1210hrs, I walked into the threadmill room..
Wore their sport shoes and lied down on the bed.
I felt like it was an experiment done on me sia..
they left me in the room alone while the doctor was attending to another patient in the other room.
after wat seems like ages, the doctor came in and explained to me the procedure..
I started to walk on the machine..
dan it increased.
soon later i was getting breathless.
lolx..
IT ALL COZ I M NOT FIT..
the doctor diagnosed that its due to muscle problem..
So it meant that I m perfectly fine=)
But it was damn expensive to do the check up lah.
Esp the Threadmill ECG..
After the hospital check up, went to shop for tw bday pressie..
After a nap went to meet the rest at The Central for tw bdae..
So down to Mos we went..
We went to the VIP section thanks to tw's brother justin..
Today i m kinda free to load the pictures and update my blogs with the pictures.. lolx

Me,myself n I

Wendy Baby & Louis

Me & Elvin

Jimmy & Me(he look kinda boyish eh)

Rayner & Me(Super Duper long didnt see him)

d guys

william drinking the martell coke

Me & Wendy Baby

Babes @ MOS

Me,Edwina,Angela & Tw

Edwina & Angela

Me & Wendy Baby

Me & Bestie Louis

Ed,Angela & Tw

HanWei(the other bdae boi) & me

Angela & William
Angela( d bdae gal on 14/8) & Me
d Bdae Boi before his speacial drink
Bdae boi After his drink
Tender Loving Care from me To Ed
smiles*
Me & Bdae Boi
Straggling is a form of murder
Nobby & Serene

TW's special drink *WaterFall

TW & his brother justin

Showing our teeth??

Reasons y gals take a long time in d toilet

fights in d club?? Tw & Wendy
Joy,Ray,Jim & Pok
Drinking Challenge??
My another great pal
There is one charming guy in the background..(NT TW!!!!!! is in between tw n elvin head)
HanWei & Wendy
Wat a drunkard will do??
d 3 bdae?? Angela,hanwei n tw
Angela & Louis
wendy n TW
Grp pic 1(w/o louis)
Grp Pic 2(w/o hanwei n ray)
Grp Pic 3 (w/o hw)
Me & Baby

2008-08-15T09:23:00.003+08:00

An hour to go..

I wanted to say:I dun feel like going..

False Expectation Appearing Real

dearie n I kept telling each other it always good to go for a check up.

It is tat something within me..

the thing i m afraid most is histroy repeating..

Thoughts

2008-08-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

I didnt know that everyday wat i did was a blessing for me

I didnt know tat everyday wat i see was a blessing for me

I didnt know tat everyday wat i have was a blessing for me

sometimes life just have to go on.

be it i like what is happening or not..

pple are dying everyday.

pple i might not know or know.

i wonder y things have to turn out this way..

there are many things on my mind..

another 12 days to go..

i m scare..

Tying The Knot??

2008-07-31T02:46:00.002+08:00

I was amused by the sudden question

or rather i was like taken aback??

In the first place y shld I tied myself down with you??

A guy whom i think over the past 8yrs I had met less dan 50times..

8 yrs * 365 days = 2920 days!!!!

Ur sudden question asking me to go ROM is seriously a joke to me..

And for Christ's sake.. i still have a long way to go..

even if i die at the age of 70

dun expect me to face u for the next 17520days..

and pls i dun wan a fail relationship..

I told myself i should be fair. hence i asked u to give me d reason y i shld give u a chance:

"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
firstly i deserve the chance b'coz i know wat i wan in life and i know u are sensible enough to think for me you and family
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
and the fact we known each other for so long
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
we understand each other
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
we should be together not because we are made for each other

"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
we should be together because we work together to be together
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
to build the kinda of feeling the love the understanding and the trust
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
i know i have betray u once twice trice
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
i know u have given alot of chance and you try to understand the situation
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
i failed you

"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
now i jus wanna build up a stronger relationship which wwill see us through the twilight years
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
so i think i deserve and should be back together with you
"A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differen" says:
just the both o fus

if it is 8yrs ago when i was still in the white blouse and blue a line skirt uniform, I will be touched and might be impulsive too..

but really sorry...

Love is a word that cant be define..

everyone has a different defination..

mine is searching for that special someone who give me that magical feeling..

Sometimes
Somethings

happen at the wrong timing..

We were not fated in the first place..

So stop wasting ur time and find some other babes out there..

I know u prefer the fast and the furious type of cars..

but well i m just a slow nissan latio=p

*dun ask me y i compare myself to latio..lolx..coz tat is the car i wanna aim to buy.. lolx..

Anyway i have no intention to settle down so soon..

prob when i turn 26 to 28..

i prefer to stick to my magical carpet that flies me around and showed me many exciting and new things..

Letting me learn things i never know before and seeing things that i never see before.. haha..

well its 330am..omg.. tomolo still got fast track...

ahhhhhhh...

alrite time to go to bed..

nite

Pictures=)

2008-07-05T14:16:00.014+08:00

It had been awhile since i posted some fun post..
Lolx.
In my previous post i mentioned i went to Hoyu with Dearie.

After dying we went to lau pa sat to wait for johan.
and we had our early dinner there.
After dinner, johan sent me to Bendemeer since he was on the way to tan-teoh to get his mc too..
I went to my beautician to pluck eyebrow.
After walking out i came across a cheap place where they cut hair for $4.80 only..
haha..
Since i got my hair dyed i was tinking y not a haircut.
Sth for a change.
SO!!!!

okie the picture wasnt so clear that i had any changes.lolx.
see me in person and u will know=p

28th June 2008
Monthly Social @ Sin Min Ave.
Seriously it was my first time there.
And IT WAS SERIOUSLY MY FIRST TIME CATCHING PRAWNS.

their 1st prawn

MY FIRST PRAWN!! HAHA..I was so excited that when i pull the rod out i actually screamed..lolx.

I saw a spider..well its too small for u to see anything here..

The BBQ area=)

my partner, Alex..haha.he trying to take the hook out from the prawn..

Otahs on Fire!!!

Some of my colleagues catching prawns..

My catch after 3hours

My Mentor- angela with her catch=)
Man In blue is JueShi another manager.

Angela caught the smallest prawn=)

Simin and Ramesh caught the biggest prawn.

Tata!! the biggest prawn for the nite=)

Me,Shirleen & Min Min

Mentee & Mentor=)
Was a fun nite n i went for an appt after the social activity..
Tiring but i ended my appt at 11plus!!
Last week i didnt really do much=)
I was busy studying for my exams..
But i took a break on Tuesday and went for Mani & Pedi with Joyce and Jamie.

pictures taken from joyce bloggie..
There are other few pictures in Jamie's blog=)
After Mani & Pedi I went to Mac to study..
Finally I passed my paper on THURSDAY!!!
YEAH 1 thing off my list..
HI EXAM CLEARED!!!
NataliE farewell.
I purposely chose this colour coz its her favourite colour=)
We had our dinner at Cine first dan heading to Party World..
Was a fun nite..

Me with NataliE

The poser=p

Daniel~~the only guy among 5 gals=)

e cousins--> Daniel & Min Min

Min Min & Me=)

Standing and Kneeling??

Foursomes singing happily to a song..

d 5 gals=)

d pple who drank..

Me & shirleen..

Shirleen & Min Min

Daniel & Me

Shirleen & Me

Nat & Me again=)

Me & Jacie=)

The old ones=X lolx

NataliE i wish u all the best.
I will miss u..
Yeah i know u besides me while i m blogging this..lolx..
But well i see u on Wednesday=)
My latte~~ Weeeeeeeee~~~~~
hehe..
Alrite i m gonna go back and work now=) haha..

Eat & Live Healthy!!

2008-06-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

Its 130am!! I cant get to slp though i hung up with dearie abt half hour ago.

I wanted to slp..

but i kept tossing and turning..

anyway before i continue i wanna thanks dearie to gimmi the lobang of free dye at HOYU..

and also for checking out the various health check up packages available..

I had decided to eat MORE VEGGIES and MORE FRUITS for my 3 meals daily..

I decided to go for a jog every week..

I decided to go for badminton every week with dearie(if possible)

And also to participate my agency social sports every friday..

Prob i shall eat apple everyday so i can keep the doctor away from me..

lolx..

I walked into room 44..

handed over the documents..

I was told to lay down on the bed..

she begun to attach some wires on me..

First thought is--is it gonna be a painful one??

I tot there is gonna be some blood test..

but NO!!!!

i asked the missy.. is it gonna be painful..

her reply: u wun feel anything at all.. this is one of the best test coz there is no pain no feeling..

dan she asked me to keep quiet and just relax..

So i lied still there not knowing what to do.. waiting for some reaction..

And viola!! its over..

Headed back to room 4...

he was busy writing some stuff for the previous patient..

I just kept looking at the graph..

Dan i told him:Seriously i have no ideal how u docs know how to read such a graph..

He looked at the graph for awhile.. dan he took the pen in his hand and start circling at certain points..

my mind chatter: what is he circling?? is there sth wrong??

Me: y did u circled those??

and he started to explain to me some medical terms...

and tried to say in layman term- it is not a normal heart cycle..

my heart skipped a beat back dan..

my mind was thinking..

DAMN AM I GOING THRU EVERYTHING AGAIN??

the feeling was a mixture..

i was scared..

sian..

i cursed myself for not buying my PruShield.. (Damn y wait till i pass my damn HI exam)

At least i know if anything i dun have to worry so much about the cost..

well like wat lian had said..

worry so much also no use..

just wait till the result is out dan see how lor..

ya i agreed with her it might not be anything serious..

just another check up mah..

So for today onwards no more unhealthy stuff for me liao..

Gonna EAT AND LIVE HEALTHY!!

what am i anyway

2008-06-18T15:23:00.002+08:00

First thing first I shall wish my dearest Nobby

Happy 22nd Bdae!!

It had seriously been a pretty bad week..

problems,problems and more problems..

Last week had a roadshow.. Imagine I cried during the roadshow..

BUT WASNT COZ OF WORK RELATED..

omg.. when will the problem ever stop..

I have my fair share of problems..

But i still try to put on a brave front and smile..

my concern was not needed but y i still care?

simply coz u r my fren..

I understand u have ur problems.. but i still show concern and wtf i got back??

It was an innocent question.. nothing leading to ur problem at all.. DAMN IT...

I know i m not someone whom everyone need to tell me their things..

BUT I PLEAD DUN TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL..

i know certain things, i not dumb..

when i asked just tell me..

i can accept the truth..

I might be unreasonable or demanding at times..

but certain things is just for ur own good..

problems after problems..

I kinda get fed up..

when one goes wrong, everything goes wrong too..

went to MOS to attend Elvin's competition..

well kinda like his female design..

but he didnt win anything..

* no worries u going to design my gown for me*

hehe..

anyway won tickets to SIAM REAP(Cambodia) all thanks to cynthia helping me to scream..

and thanks to nat and the others for giving me the answer..

haha..

but the problem is..

CAMBODIA lei.. haha.. at least a pair to bangkok i more happy..

lolx.. okay at least won something..

rainy weather makes me more moody..

as if i m not moody enuff..

lolx.. but anyway prob just leave me alone for the time being..

dun bug me with more problems.. please.

what am i anyway??

just someone.. another ordinary someone..

List of things~~~

2008-05-29T03:13:00.002+08:00

Things I wanna to do/complete/enjoy!!!

1) Pass my HI later(29/5/08 @ 330pm)

2) Leses Meet Up/Dinner

3) F409 Lunch( 1/6/08)

4) Clubbing (31/5/08)

5) Mahjonging

6) Meeting Dar Dar and see her wedding gown

7) F409 Chalet

8) SENTOSA ( 31/5/08 with United Team)

9) Clean My MESSY ROOM

10) filing of my documents

11) MORE APPTS MORE SALES

12) Pluck eyebrow

13) facial/massage (pampering session time)

14) Cycling @ EAST COAST!!

15) Complete Fast Track

Basically i tink now only got this list of things..

Too concentrate on my HI exam le..

I m just taking a break=)

I m still deciding if i should give up on my fast track..

Its a challenge I wanna run..

but Edwin advice me to stop and run for next year instead..

Fast Track is basically a challenge for the new comers and there is a quota to hit..

Basically I feel its not that hard..

But prob coz of my exams..

And only left with 1 month to run..

I wanna make the impossible to happen..

Let me pass my HI later and let me complete the fast track pls..

I pray......

* K back to study..

Lotsa of Frenz??

2008-05-29T00:55:00.003+08:00

It was just a recent incident that make me wonder..

Where are my frenz??

Lolx..

It might sounds silly..

Coz most knew tat I have alot of frenz surrounding me..

Different groups of frenz..

from my leses, to my primary, to my sec(same batch, junior and senior),poly frenz(same course,knew from camps/events),ex colleagues from ljs/mels/starhub,present colleagues from prudential(pple from my agency n others..)

seriously there are alot of contacts in my Red Nokia E65..

but d close ones??

lolx..

I told a new fren I've know recently that everyone to me are close frenz.. but a few are precious..

i dun mind to talk to anyone abt my problems..

but..

tat nite.. when i was looking for someone to listen to my *complaints*

NO ONE~~~

actually its just coz i tot of calling the few precious..

but no one was there to listen to me..

the few whom I tried to called n whom their names came into my mind:

A - Not in Sg

B - In Camp

C - Busy

D - Didnt answer

E - Didnt Answer..

This leads me to asking myself.. I tot i got alot of frenz..

Well.. I do.. haha..but allow me to chat on phone are a few..

and only a few i can talk to them about my problems..

the others? is socializing..

Dun get me wrong.. I love everyone..

In fact I make a point to love and not hate everyone..

I dun care who u are..

coz hating or bad mouthing someone is just SO SO TIRING..

so y nt just treat everyone for who they are.. n accept them for who they are..

I have throw tat UGLY DEVIL BABY away..

I m not SAINT but at least I try to make my life more meaninful..

Coz I realised that LIFE IS TOO SHORT to be hating others..

Racing against Time!!

2008-05-09T18:24:00.003+08:00

It was difficult.. Never Easy..

I knew it when I made my decision..

I tot to myself y i chose this road over n over again..

It was tat day I finally realised y I join..

Coz I went thru before..

I dun wan pple to follow my footsteps..

Spending every penny of wat i earned was the wrong way..

I learnt the impt of cultivating the habit of saving..

Even putting aside $2/day into somewhere with higher interest for my future use was something didnt come across my mind..

I went thru before when I learnt I need to go for operation..

My mind was thinking..

Y me..

How come I need to go for an operation..

Where m i going to get the money..

lucky for me, my daddy bought a plan for me so $$ was not a prob dan..

at least I dun need to worry for money when I go for my operation..

I never thought y..

But u question me Y..

N we both talked till we almost cried..

No one wants to go and not leaving anything behind for their love ones..

No one wants to go lead their future not having any saving started..

It all about start early else it may be too late..

every week besides slping..

my time was mostly spent on work..

each appt was impt to me..

wan to date me out.. pls tell me advance..

LOL..

SCREAMING I N SILENCE

2008-04-20T16:31:00.002+08:00

I held back my tears..

I hid my emotions..

I told no one about it coz I knew there was nothing I could do/change..

It was a fact..

I wanted so much to scream..

But I could only scream in silence..

It is a topic I wish I could erase..

I had always paint a perfect image of you to others..

But that nite where it was raining cats n dogs..

Tat image had shattered..

From a previous incident I had tot to myself..

there are not many whom I can trust anymore..

But u r one of them whom I can trust from the beginning..

Prob I hate others to hide things from me..

N I was upset when I learnt the truth..

I suspected it..

But U denied it..

Prob U might think the incident had been over for mths..

but unexpectedly I had learnt the truth..

Pictures!!!

2008-04-17T22:37:00.012+08:00

Zouk 070308 A fun nite with the gang. Been awhile since i last saw d clubbing gang=)
Will see u guys after ya exams!!

IT Fair '08

After work tat day went down to Suntec for the IT show..
@ d same time pass Jamie her cheque=)
I was super bored while waiting for the guys..
N I was super hungry after walking for few hours!!!
Didnt ate a single meal till8plus..
Well at least the guys got wat they wanted..
N Kenneth can start scolding F*** u to jimmy liao.. haha..

EDWIN's 21st Bdae

Edwin's bdae is on d 13th.. but was celebrated earlier coz he need to go to Brunei..
Celebrated his bdae on 4th of April @ Aranda Country Club=)
Well where we reached there, the cut cake ceremony was over..
There were many others which we dunoe.. but i believe Edwin had his fun..
Didnt get to take a picture of the bdae boi..
Well at least i still get to take with d others who was there(Onli Winson n Hanwei is missing)

William Farewell Dinner

I was to my last 3 pictures & Blogger is experiencing some problem which leads me to unable to upload the rest of the pictures..

well.. some other times dan I shall upload it..

Updates

I had completed my various levels..

N Finally I can start recommending the various products available in the market..
I just got contracted yesterdae..
N I m now officially an adviser..

Just to let u know.. I m still here..
I cant promise anything but I will TRY to be there..

updates~~

2008-04-09T12:23:00.002+08:00

For the past 1 week ++ I had been at paya lebar..

& Still counting the days i m gonna be at paya lebar for training..

Today a day off for me..

Gonna meet Jamie Dear later=)

At last I had passed another 4 tests..

So left with 1 MAJOR exam..

Had been pretty exhausted for the past mths..

Other dan frenz bdae or events, I had been a good gal n went home straight to SLP=)

So my life for march had been pretty boring..

Imagine me slping at home on a Friday..

(Jimmy if u ever read this.. dun find it as a surprise okie.. haha.. yes slp w/o any tears nor making any sulking face)

Sometimes I just wonder did I make a wrong step into this industry..

but like i always say.. since I m already in..

Just let me try..

I dun ask for much.. but just give me moral support..

tat all I need..

Boo Boo

2008-03-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Its Friday!!

N I m stuck in the office..

My work was almost done ard 3plus..

I was chionging to finish the work..

Coz for the past week i didnt sleep well at all..

I tot I could go home earlier to sleep..

I need tat rest BADLY..

However shit do happen..

4plus near to 5plus..

I realised all the sale productions was not the latest update as wat u had told me it will be in the server drive..

I have to redo everything as I have to send for printing tml so tat it will be in time for the Sunday meeting.

N its 9 plus n I yet to have my dinner..

Oh damn..

I just finish the handouts..

FInally..

Now I have to chiong the powerpoint slides again..

I m tired..

Tml i have to come back to the office again!!!

OMG... I tot i cld rest for the day so I could enjoy the BBQ at nite..

Simin might not able to join for the company BBQ=(

(girl I wish u cld pass tat exam so u wun be so stress up... but again.. my turn will come when I have to study for that paper)

Poly going to start soon.. d telemarketers had quit=(

office had found a new secretary..

n Natalie will be working here till 3rd..

so damn SIAN lah..

no more gossip session or talk cock session with them..

This whole week is so tiring..

N sunday have to attend the meeting..

Next week is another tiring week..

coz i have to attend my product training at paya lebar..

oh F***..

so many damn shits..

N now i have to go back to work again..

Goodbye..

2008-03-14T17:04:00.006+08:00

I promised i will post pictures this week..

but i guess I will post it next week..

On wednesday i receive a call from mummy~~

thinking if she just wanna ask me if i m going home for dinner..

i picked it up n heard the unexpected news..

I saw her many yrs back.

JUST ONCE..

but that once I was very excited coz i finally get to see her.

It was many yrs back. I remembered she picked us up from the bus station..

She n my step grand-pa drove me n my parents to their shop house..

I remembered vividly the old short plump lady..

always smiling n asking me to eat more..

i was too young to remember the conversation dan..

but i remembered she brought us to eat at some hawker centre too..

On 10th March 2008,

she had leave the world to be united with the Lord..

Not that I m a christian or wat but she is one..

I felt sad upon hearing the news on wednesday..

3 days after her death..

but my family had tot it happened on Wednesday..

Miscommunication~~

n when finally contacted with the pple over in malaysia..

IT WAS OVER~~~

somehow or rather..

it hurts..

i kept reminding myself birth old sick death is wat we face in life..

She is just 77yrs old this yr..

it hurts me coz i didnt get to send her off..

After all..

she is still my granny..

n i do love her too..

goodbye granny..

Random Updates

2008-03-07T14:37:00.005+08:00

*Wiping away all the webs*

Super long since i last updated..

But i was super lazy n super busy.. with I dunoe wat.

Last entry was before my Bdae~~

My leses was with me d day before my chalet n we had a simple BBQ~~

10q girls 4 d simplicity & d cake n d ang bao & d company=p

on d day itself, Louis actually asked my poly frenz out for a dinner.

it was DAMN expensive lah.. but i dun denied the food was great=)

10q tw for the flowers n balloon.. 10q edwina n gangs for the dress..

after tt we went for a movie- Cloverfield..

Seriously it gimmi the headache n i felt like puking during the show..

ended up i was playing game on my phone..

On 24th of Jan, d crazy gang asked me out for another simple dinner..

yeah we settled our simple dinner at simpang bedok(i shld say supper)lol

10q guys for the treat at simpang bedok..

well ZAC u still owe me my MALAYSIA TRIP!!!!!

Next was Lian Bdae..

We had our dinner n after which went to Nat's parents office for a KTV session..

i was quite tired n such ended up i was playing my DS Lite most of the time.. lolx

haha.. believed we had a great time there oso=)

Next was Shan's bdae..

Went to PS to have a dinner at Mahattan fish market..

well was suppose to ask shan to pick her pressie lah.. but ended up oso didnt pick her pressie yet.. lolx

CNY was next..

on the 5th went to SI MA LU temple to pray with my company pple..

after which we went to vivo for a movie..

RAMBO n we had our lunch there..

After which we went to Children Aids Society home..

* Note the Aids is not HIV Aids.. its helping aids ah**

Had lotsa of fun over there n the children there r quite chatty too=)

I will post their picture next time i blog.. I PROMISE.. lolx

So off we go to for our UT reunion dinner=)

On the eve of CNY, I was at home slping n playing ds lite most of the time..

haha..

After dinner with my family, i went to rest for awhile n after which prepare to go for MJ session..

Haha.. it became a tradition to me.. for the past 3 yrs after reunion dinner at home i will go over to Elvin house with Baofa n Louis for MJ session..

So from the eve of Lunar New Year to the 3rd day I was playing MJ n cards..

3rd day went house visting with my poly frenz..

On the 4th day went to meet up with my bao beis to have our reunion lunch=)

Watch CJ7 & Kung Fu Dunk..Joyce got us Tulips from Holland..

After the movies we went home..

Back to Office on the 5th day..

so after our Yu Sheng.. we went for our company house visiting,..

n we did have our gambling session tat day too..

haha..

On 16th Feb went to work for event company. We worked from morning 8am till 12midnite..

okay there was break in between..

I love to work Casino coz tat is when i can see ed n sab..

haha..

tat is when i get my updates of their life every now n dan=)

d morning show was damn shitty coz poor ed n sab got bitten by mousquito..

n the pple was like betting like some roadside gambling den like tat..

pushing n cheating of the banker money..

No air con some-more..

Nite show was better=)

Raffles Town Club..

The pple there were more hmmm sosphicated??

Majority was Ang Mos n well there were pretty women n CUTE GUYS to see=p

After the CNY period it was my mum's bdae..

so went out with my mum on her bdae on the 23rd Feb

Brought her to VIVO City..

She had not been there before. and she told me next time she gonna bring my dad there.. haha..

had a simple dinner with her and chatted for awhile=)

Okay Random updates of Jan & Feb.. Shall Update March next week i think.. lolx

& Recently coz i failed my exams again I had been my manager Personal Assistant for the time being till i passed my exam..

So i better start mugging again..

will try to blog next week else the week after next.. =)

Grieve

2008-01-13T08:12:00.000+08:00

Time really flies and another week is gone..
Something felt wrong somewhere for the past week..

And I've been asking myself the same question over and over again..

A close fren of mine asked me why I am so weak?

It is like I have no ideal what my position or placing within u..

Treating u as a Gem but I MAY just seem as a dirt.

Recently I have a childhood fren whom I know since before Primary school, mum had passed away..

A few weeks before tat happened an ex colleague of mine had passed away too..

I remember telling Dawn I wanted to write a post title:"The Tomorrow That Never Comes"

Sounds like a familiar pharse perhaps..

Many of u may have known that I m doing recruitment calls for the past 2 mths plus..

I can make phone calls to ANYONE on my phone list..

Everytime I scroll to that name I would tell myself..

"I shall call him tml"

and yes my tml didnt come coz I always ended up calling some other random pple...

Even calling pple who I have meet up often or had just seen him or her..

A week passed.. than a month.the next thing I knew was to received about the news of him leaving this world..

I felt quite upset and angry on myself coz why i didnt make that phone call??

It might not make a difference that he have to leave this world but at least I could had sent my condolence to his family=(

Last Monday Eve,Daryl & I went out for a dinner and ice cream..

As Daryl was sending me home..

I told the two of them in the car that if one day i m gone what my request will be..

Daryl was still asking me why is everyone saying about death nowadays??

Well on that every nite I received the sms from eve abt my fren mum passed away..

DAryl if u r reading this my answer to u is that: Anything may happen anytime anywhere for any reason...

========Fear within me========

8 yrs ago, I was in school, attending a camp..

On that nite something happened to me and I was sent home.

It was just a one time incident and I tot it will never happen again..

Life goes on like a roller coaster for me.. ups and downs and in circles..

And yes somehow or rather I had forgotten about that incident..

However last week when I was at a friend's place..

and it was in the middle of the night!!!!

It came back again.. that feeling..

that fear..

It was controllable initially but it got worst and I thank you for being there to help me out..

else God knows where it will lead me to....

It is something I didnt want to experience but at that moment my mind was racing against time and I have no idea what is going on.. and I just wish it will end soon...

leaving no trace behind.......

======Birthday=======

Another week and i will be turning 22..

I thanks those who had given me my early pressie..

though I didnt expect you pple will be so early..

Yes in the words of baofa:" We are army boys.. We wun know what will happened next week"

He was referrring to guard duties and confinement..

thanks to those who kept asking me to continue with my chalet plan..

or asking me to continue to celebrate my bdae..

AT LEAST I KNEW U PPLE BOTHER...

but still I had decided and shall let the case rest..

anyway it is my bdae and my chalet it up to me wat i want..

So I had decided to watch finish all the dvds I had borrowed from pple out there and return to them after tat..

at least it is like i m doing something to keep myself occupy=)

Sorry for my attitude but I m sensative towards my bdae..

I rather not do anything than have any arrangments..

Even like what u said..

A simple dinner or ordinary dinner I still wil decline the offer..

coz deep inside me I know somewhere is still feeling like shit..

And I mean DAMN SHITTY feeling that I hate to admit I MAYBE just a dirt in others' eyes..

A brand New Year

2008-01-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

2007 had ended~~

I wish 2008 will be a better year..

And only 6 days into the new year..

And it had not been really going well..

hopefully on the 15th i can pass my M9 exam in one go..

on the 17th, company D&D @ waterfront hotel..

Maybe after that going club..

19th is my bdae n i actually turning 22 this year..

time realli flies..

Anyway i believed i've told many that I'll be having a chalet..

Well I think I m not hosting any anymore..

Reason??

*Shrug* I dunoe..

$#4334#$%$%$85 Calls

2007-12-07T04:48:00.000+08:00

It is freaking near to 5am in the morning..

N Yes in a short while i will most likely to have my prata n teh ice in front of me!!

Before I start cursing again..

Let Me wish Daryl HAPPY ORD LO=p

Okay MR $#$*#%$i54855$%*$*%$(% Caller~~~~~~

I was not totally mad at u in the first place for calling me late at nite to make d wrong phone call ONCE~~

I picked it up afraid some pple who ever need me 4am in the morning to go to the hospital when his wife was in difficult labour..

I picked it up thinking I have a friend who maybe hey u wan to have breakfast..

I picked it up tinking I have a fren Hey do u have a time to spare coz I got someone here who was really an A$*#$#*%$..

And recently my number had been repeatedly given away to some strangers n making some random phone calls to disturb me..

First was an AH BENG who called me with a PRIVATE NO.

2 wks of callings.

well done.. I was really nice to u too.. n of coz polite to u too.. to entertain ur small toks each time u call looking for "AH SENG" n I just say it is the wrong #..

It was realli a pain in the ass after 2 weeks n I passed it on to a collegue of mine n u finally say u r an AH LONG..

calling from some money lending company.. thank god my collegue handle u well.. for u might be his future prospect..

I mean honestly how many WRONG NUMBER phone calls do u keep dialing..

so today..

While i was watching dvd.. UNKNOWN number..

yup this fellow left his number.

so he call me around 430am in the damn MORNING~~~~~~

i picked it up..

other party: Hello Eddie Pls

Me(blur): Who???

Other party: Eddie..

Me: Sorry You got the wrong number.... (And I hung up..pardon me but I am damn tired le)

few seconds into my show again he called again..

I mean honestly you got the wrong number n i dun wan disturb calls to go on...

so I rejected the call...

and again u call...

Me: Hello

other party: is this 9*******....

Me: Yes but however you got the wrong number and u r calling me in the bloody morning.. I can call the police to report for distrubing..

Other party: Hey u I m looking for someone urgent and my daughter is a lawyer.

Dun come and use police to scare me k..

I can ask my daughter to sue u..

Me: Hey look this is my number n u r calling the wrong number and I told u in the first call le..

other party: than is that bloody fool who give me the wrong numberla.. dan u nt need to use police to scare me k...

Me: dan ok so now u know it is wrong le rite.. so dun call back.. (hung up phone)

okay forgive me for being damn rude but hello..

for those kind souls out there dun make prank calls..

yes my phone is on 24/7 but not for this purposes...

I dun entertain shit stuff like this..

I m too young to have a son or a daughter who is lawyers.

No son or daughter in the police..

but it dun give u the entitlement to abuse ur children career in this way rite..

oh man y cant i have a peaceful last 24 days of my 2007...

PS: Jamie do agree with me 2007 really alot of weird stuff happening to me=(

Oh damn it..

UpdateZzzzZz

2007-12-03T16:33:00.000+08:00

Time past and December is here;

Another 28 days, goodbye 2007 and hello 2008..

I promised to update on Saturdae but I was busy doing some housework chores and ended up too tired to write an entry=X

02/12/07 Sunday:

Met up with Victor,Neo,Jerry,ZiHui,HanWei,Louis at Tamp Mall Mac Donald=p

We make it a point to have breakfast every Sunday for TCSS(Talk Cock Sing Song)

After which we walked around for awhile n soon left with HW, Louis n myself..

We walked around the mall while waiting for BaoFa(seriously I wanted to rest awhile coz my leg is kinda pain)

Upon Baofa arrival we went to Sakae Sushi at Century Square(10q Baofa n welcome back to SG)

yes another TCSS begins=)

Mahjong was suggested n we called a few who was unable to make it and yes ended up Kenneth able to make it..

We tot of buying a table n go over to Louis's place to play mahjong..

however it is a sunday late afternoon=X

And most of the neighbourhood shops are closed=(

We explored around Bedok to look for a table..

and my leg almost give way but luckily we managed to find it..

So MJ session begins and ended around 9 and than to dinner..

30/11/07 Friday

My leg was still swelling on Friday and Daryl came to pick me up and send me over to Jamie's void deck Chinese Physician.

Jamie n her boyfriend came over shortly to meet us..

The physician is one MAGICIAN.. okay i m quite amazed la..

he pressed some points and my ankle felt much more better...

can say i m kinda turtle in the well or wat la.. but it really felt better after seeing him..

(Side Track:speaking of it.. i forget to take medication today=X)

After seeing the physician, we went to SIM as Jamie Dear needs to make some payment..

hence we settle our lunch there.

Saw a few frenz there such as Baby Wendy, Ah Bee(elvin's fren) n Yue Juan..

After which Dearie wants to go to Citibank to make her ClearCard..

so off we go to J8 where we shop awhile n settle for a SINFUL chocolate fondue=p

Yummilicious.. It had been awhile i had tat.. hehe..

Thanks Johan for sending me home=)

(Daryl needs to head home earli;anyway thanks for waking up earli to send me over)

27/11/07 Tuesday

Was Jacie's Birthday(28/11/07) and Daniel's 10 Yrs Anniversary with United Team..

Simin was damn excited about it and did alot of things for Daniel(her cousin).

so tat nite we went to Orchard Plaza(de ninety seven); a place of disco,k-room and such..

it was ladies nites..

so a bottle of martell was like $97..

And the place well.. not very to youngster hangout lah..

haha.. but still did had my bit of highness..

and while was helping a fren to the washroom, I didnt see the steps in front of me and i fell down..

tat is how i got my ankle swelled up=X

Went for supper or rather i say is breakfast coz it is 5am when we left the place..

hehe..

Reached home and bathe was like 6am..

Wednesday woke up at 8plus and off to office..

And yes my ankle is very much like it belong to a PIG=(

23/11/07 - 25/11/07 (friday to Sundae)

Attended an extremly INCREDIBLE seminar..

Millionaire Intensive Mindset (something like tat)

and trust me i learnt so much from this seminar..

it changed my mindset over some things..

and oh nt forgetting get some real CHEAP stuff at LOREAL SALES for myself and my Dearest..

24/11/07 Saturdae

After attending the seminar tat day I went to Kenneth's 21st bdae party..

Quite a simple celebration.

No dancing no alcohol..

but I like or rather love the look on Kenneth's face when he got his pressie n open it up..

It like a little boy of 5yrs old opening his pressie and there is his desire present..

22/11/07 Thursdae

I finally pass my Module 5 for my insurance already..

Overnite studying at the Mac did pay off..

well was quite nice to study with Miew n Lian at Mac again..

coz I kinda lost touch of that feeling..

haha..

Overall I had not been doing much..

maybe I did lah..

went to Sentosa with Zac and Daryl..

I m not going to list everything for the past month i guess..

Anyway I m looking forward to the last few weeks of my 2007..

8th: - Daryl's ORD and congrats my friend for getting back your freedom=)

- Meeting up with my ex collegues from StarHub(yes for Mahjong Session)

9th: - Sentosa with my classmates F409.

15th - Crazy Gang Xmas Gathering ( n yes i had not buy a pressie for the exchange yet..any ideals my frenz?? $15 - $15.50.. yes thix is the budget given by miss Yi Siew.. any amount less or more by $0.01 I will have to treat everyone for a drink)

Zac I tink u still owe us from last yr lei.. lolx.. Weeeeeeee~~~~~

22nd: - Poly friends Xmas dinner.. mainly from F409 and the hangout gang(Baofa,Pok,tw and blah blah blah..) place yet to decide lei... oh sucks... and I better mass sms soon..

29th : Yeena's 21st bdae celebration

30th-1st of Jan 2008: Leses Chalet=)

Yes most of my saturdae are pack.. fully packed..

maybe try your luck in dating me out on sundays or weekdays alrite=)

lolx..

Yippie...

Xmas cards..

Xmas Pressies..

Xmas Gatherings..

Fabulous...

YAes it is all this festive seasons tat we have meet ups..

Suddenly i feel time just ticking so fast..

and I m turning 22 soon..

okay in a month plus..

I m getting old=(

and I better buck up with my work attitude..

where are the rich and good and handsome guys out there anyway>??

lolx..

okay done with my updates..

Soooooooooooo as you all can see I will be pretty PRETTY BEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZY.....

Buzzzzing here n Buzzzzzing There...

I wun have much time to update too...

hehe,,

but do drop by..

okay it is really a long entry today=)

that it..

I m lazy to type more.. lolx..

15/10/07

2007-10-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

Last 5 days in StarHub or rather 4 more days to go.

7 days to Prudential..

14 days to Module 5's examination..

Wish I could pass with just one time=p

okay i do admit i m lazy to touch tat book..

i got the book like on 3rd of Oct..

the first weekend I did not touch the book..

9-12 I also did not touch the book coz I was working late=(

Oh gosh..

I think i better start studying.. soon..

and I do mean REALLY SOON!!!!!!!!

no more slacking..

smack that lazy bones of mine..

K I m off.. will update soon with pictures for the past events..

Feelings

2007-10-03T16:42:00.001+08:00

I am just feeling so tired..

I had been complaining to some of you about my health condition recently..

Yeah the only advice that everyone is telling me is :

GO CONSULT A DOCTOR..

I always tot after a 12hrs of slp n i will be fine..

but it just seems to be abit out of hand..

You are treating me better each day..

n i seriously love how u tell me that its been a long time you didnt see me though we parted like 10minutes..

Yes i beginning to feel blissed=)

U R IMPT

2007-09-27T13:20:00.000+08:00

No names will be mentioned in this entry..

but i m not talking about one person..

but i m talkin about afew pple..

You walked with me thru many yrs..

everything about me you should know it well..

The last arguments we had i guess was back dan in our younger days..

due to some stupid comment by a teacher n u were mad at me..

we exchange notes with each other.. not love notes n not study notes..

but its secret notes n gossiping notes=)

u stood by me thru most of my difficult times..

fond memories kept within me though i know most it u might had forgotten for u r STM..

lolx.

but i know u know that u r still impt to me though we dun meet tat often:p

Over the years you had been on my mind and I dunoe how is life getting on with you.

Becoz of you,my life changed alot..

you leave many memories behind and I remember all the little things we did with pagers in the past=)

I noticed you at mac donald..

from there ur small acts makes my heart flutter with smiles on my face..

How things would be like if you are by my side now?

You just love to tease me be it is good or bad..

you just loves to make me miss you so much that we had become an item..

It was sooner or later fact..

but it became a fact earlier than i had expected.

you taught me things I never know and make me yummy food.

You had tolerate with my nonsense and give in to me like how i had given in to your bad temper..

okay i given quite alot of attitude..

but you are the cause of my attitude=p

okay its all because of my unreasonable attitude dat caused all these:p

from an enemy not really enemy though but from a seed n with my showering care n loves..

the flower is blooming beautifully..

Okay i m at work now so i cant blog about many other important pple in this entry..

but everyone of you out there that i know..

you did make an impact in my life=)

Kiss Goodbye To The Key Of Trust

2007-09-22T14:33:00.001+08:00

I'm back in the office now.. n yes i know its a saturdae..

Maybe it is just my personality..

I dun like things lying halfway done..

well just had lunch with hanwei @ LemonGrass @ Heeren..

Apparently we ate around $44 for just the 2 of us..

lolx. thanks for accompanying me for lunch.

I shall kiss goodbye to the key of trust~~

6 months ago u took it away from me without asking me..

i found out it was missing only 3 months ago..

I thought i had lost it..

I was going to cry dan..

and that is when u told me u had took it..

I know i was harsh when i shouted at u and scolded u with all the unkind words I ever used on you before..

Guess I had broke ur heart dan..

I cried for hours without anyone by my side..

It was silly to cry I know.. but it broke my heart too..

Thinking of how useless I am to prevent such things to happen..

Today you asked if I still wants it..

Obviously my answer is yes!!

but upon listening on what the price to have it back..

I decided to kiss it goodbye..

Coz I know the same thing will happen again a few months down the road if the whole situation got even more worse..

U did promise me u will get it back for me 3 months ago..

n today here u r asking if i still wants it..

how much more can i trust u?

Everything I do, is always not up to ur standard n not to ur likings..

since when u have supported my decision?

I m where i m today coz I m happy with what i m doing..

earning big bucks n working less hours maybe great..

but i might not be happy too..

Cant u just give me a little trust on what i m doing?

its the tears that wash away my pain..

n i know no matter how much money i earn i might get the happy life i m leading now..

i might be slogging away in the office till 2am in the morning..

but at least i m happy working n i still have my frenz around me..

n the environment is great here..

but still life have to be realistic n not in my dreamland..

coz singapore standard of living is just increasing..

PS: I am working now coz I want to make sure everything is done!! but not for the sake of the bloody OT.. yeah who dun wan money but dun think i m clocking OT just to claimed OT alrite.. sometimes i just find u a bitch~~ seriously i think i shld not say sometimes i should say always.. coz u r one.. Sometime money is not the root of everything.. n it is definitely not the root of why i m back here today!!!

Thoughts

2007-09-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

I am lost for awhile..

missing,disappearing vanishing and back again..

not going to blog much about happenings though..

kinda tired..

been too busy for the past 2 weeks.. or maybe for the past month..

I had learnt..

been fearful n trapped in my own tots n world will only make situation worse..

Trying hard

searching

reaching out to find my solution..

The thought of one thing always come into my mind..

n basically i guess it dun just apply to u or him or she...

it applies to everyone..

if i was gone wld it even make a damn difference to ur life?

at least i guess not so much for i know u have many others beside u n i m not the only one you need.

because u didnt need me in the first place...

so stop telling me u need me..

because i had prove it..

to everyone..

even without me..

life still goes on..

so even when i m gone, sadness taken over u for awhile..

n after that everything is back to normal again for u..

i always tink i m just a passer by to everyone..

for i always feel i m tat unimportant sometimes..

n forgotten at times.

n not needed at all..

I'm Back

2007-08-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

Yesh i m back~~

I look horrible now with that scar on my neck=(

but it will heal..

i must restrict myself from eating chicken,egg,seafood,spicy and dark sauces stuff..

The above mentioned are all my favourite food..

argh..

Many thanks to Lian & Miew & my mummy for accompanying me to wait till i enter the O.T

Thanks u gals for the lappy and the shows..

thanks dawn,neo,zhi hui n hui ting for the magazines=)

thanks benjamin for the vcds(though i didnt watch) lolx..

thanks daryl n gino for the sunflowers..

thanks miew n lian again for the winnie the pooh cushion..

thanks bao fa for the mickey n minnie balloons..

thanks han wei's mother for the sugar bird nest..

thanks joyce n jack for the sun flower n card..

thanks baby edwina for the fruits..

nice grapes.. lolx..

thanks louis for the beancurd n the untouched chwee kueh..

Thanks all for coming to visit me=)

Thanks you all for everything=p

Thanks Miew for checking for me the admin thingy n stuff n keep coming back to keep me company..

Thanks louis for keeping me company too though u were chased out by the nurse.. lolx

Well after i was back home..
I became more bad temper i guessed..
I get easily irritated so pls pardon me for my short temper..
coz there r lotsa of things i cant do so i very pek chek..
alot of things i cant eat..
u know the feeling of everything so near yet so far=(

Wishing it will recover quickkkkkkkkkkkk

2007-07-31T18:09:00.000+08:00

3 more days to Friday~~

Nothing to be happy about though..

Just a little bit scare and worry..

Its getting on my nerve when pple kept asking me what time when i already said i only know the timing on WEDNESDAY!!

-Fatigue (yeah I start to feel tired always)

-Weakness(yeah i always tends to feel weak)

-Weight gain or increased difficulty losing weight(pple do claimed i put on weight though)

-Coarse, dry hair(still look the same to me)

- Dry, rough pale skin(rough skin maybe no pale leh)

-Hair loss(yes that y there is a patch behind)

- Cold intolerance (can't tolerate the cold like those around you){ I used to be able to stand cold}

-Muscle cramps and frequent muscle aches(often)

-Constipation(happened a few times)

-Depression(yeah I tend to think more n more for the past 6mths n wanting to cry??)

-Irritability(yeah so pls do not get on my nerve)

-Memory loss(yeah I tend to forget things easily now)

-Abnormal menstrual cycles(yeah.. its always not normal)

Well just hope everything turns out well after friday=)

haha..

Pple who are meeting me over the weekends,

I m particular about flowers.. haha..

ask elvin to help u all choose flowers..

oh wendy if u reading this..

I ONLY WANT BIG SUNFLOWER FROM U!!!

lolx.. alrite.. i update when i m free again bah=)

*I want to watch THE SIMPSONS

*JIMMY I WANT DS FOR THE WEEKENDS LAH

*BAO FA I WANT THE PSP FOR THE WEEKENDS LAH

*I WANT LAPTOP ON THE WEEKENDS SO I CAN WATCH MOBTV OR VCDS=)

yeah i m going for yet another holidays=)

but its a SG RESORT!!!

Lazy

2007-07-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

many had asked me about my blog.

I was simply too busy on weekdays to update..

and weekends i was well simply too lazy..

haha..

okay just abit of update alrity..

hmmm..

4-11July i went BKK with Wendy, Bew, Elvin and Gino..

was quite fun and stuff like that.. will update abt bkk trip another time with pictures=)

You may like to visit Bew's blog for abit of updates= www.bewie-yourockmyworld.blogspot.com

Dan follow by Miao Juan 21st Birthday celebration at Sentosa Beach Resort with the leses..

Dan on the day of her birthday we went to have dinner at a Korean Rest. @ excelsior hotel.

Will also update on her bdae another time..

27July

Those who knew I had visited the doctor regarding a small lump at my throat..

So went to see the doctor regarding the report as it was out earlier than the expected date.

So i spent like from 2-5plus at TTSH to see the doctor,arrange some things..

After everything went to meet miao juan coz we were supposed to go daryl's 21st bdae at Cafe Del Mar..

I was quite happy coz i able to meet up with Zac,dawn and adeline like after so long time..

for details of daryl's bdae pls go to adeline's blog=)

I will update another day.,.

Basically from the 3rd August onwards I will not be contactable..

so those who wants to go out with me..

just wait till i m back alrite..

The fear within me as the date is nearing is kinda making me more paranoid..

Sometimes somethings cant be prevented I guess..

Sick

2007-06-27T12:27:00.000+08:00

okay i know i was suppose to blog over the weekends n update some pictures..

but i was watching tv and playing with my hamster so didnt use the lappy..

Oh did i mention i was aslp most of the time too?

I just feel so so so tired..

Rushing Rushing Rushing..

And yes chasing chasing chasing..

Its definitely exhausting..

I felt feverish yesterday..

today i feel cold and had been sneezing in the office.

okay i do admit i feel like slping..

but how to slp sia..

think thursdae after go and feed and play with my hamster

i shall go home and slp earli..

Sunday shall be slp whole day and watch tv..

okay Jerry was bored i guess and he went to abuse my pictures..

okay tat picture was like so long ago lah..
but at least he was bored and at least Joy did came across his mind..

Unless he played with everyone from our class..

haha.

How i miss poly life=)

okay i think now lunch time can take a nap..

whole body feel weak..

better recover before i go BKK..

ARGHHHHHHH!!!! DAMN

2007-06-20T14:55:00.000+08:00

I just hung up the phone with you.

and pls i m a human with many tasks on hand..

Dun expect me to have scanner memory..

And seriously pls dun think u are so high up and think wat u do is correct!!!!

Oh bloody hell u r just so $%$%^65^%($54

I dun even know wat the word to describe u..

I just knew it I just knew u sure will find problem with me..

u shall rot in hell and u shall die horribly

and i shall curse u till u get outta of my sight..

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

FUCK OFF

19/6/07

2007-06-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

I m supposed to be working now.
And yes i m in the office now..

i just need a break from all the numbers and bills and calculations.

Its driving me nuts seriously.

Guess need to OT tonite again.

I managed to get out of my comfort zone in d morning despite the fact i fell aslp at 5am!!

It was a total drag from my room to the bathroom seriously.

the thought of more accounts need to finish n the money to save for BKK,

I force myself to be more willing to go work today.

I treat myself to a can of milo(though i prefer packet style) and 2 meiji yougurts.
bought it on the way to work n saw tat meiji yougurts are having offer.

2 for $1.50..

So i tot y nt let the yougurt to be my lunch and dinner(for my ot) later.

And hell i didnt realised till i told my collegue tat i bought it for offer..

the yougurt is going to expire in like a week times!!!!

haha..

but i still ate it so make no diff if i know anot=)

I keep listening to "Out Of Reach" sang by Gabrielle.
well is a song from bridget jones's dairy.

And i m so in love with this song..
yeah i might be emo now..
but still cant blame me..
I m single and i m available and i cant help to wish someone out there to pamper me=)

okay craps..
I m pampered by many pple around me=)
Yes i know.. And hey I do love them too okie:p

Dun stabbed me with ur evil knife and i will be kind.
I treat pple the way how they treat me..
but if u r too SAINT i will be on my guards too!!

This week gonna be a busy week!!

And i wish seriously wish tat I can go for my HOLS soon!!!
the hetic life is just killing me~~~
And i just need a little break..
okay a week is maybe not a little..

but its going to be another few months down the road that I m planning for my next trip again leh..

haha..

so must as well take a little more break from everything..

okay i guess i took a realli long break from my paperwork and i guess i better start rite away=)

till my next entry..dunoe when.. haha.. maybe weekends n i will post some pictures=)

Thank You

2007-06-18T10:04:00.000+08:00

You had been a wonderful fren to me..
From one who play punk with me during lesson,

Turning
2 one who suppose to sms his gf but sent the sms to me..
2 one who go cycling with me and give me a ride..
2 one who listen to my woes,

2 one who share your problems with me.

2 one who I talked on the phone everyday,

2 one who lend me your shoulder to cry on.

2 one who lend me your hand when i fall,

2 one who stand by me when i became crazy,

2 one who pay for my expenses when i m broke,

2 one who hugged me tight when i m feeling blue,

2 one who help me fixed my computer till 6am in the morning,

2 one who download songs that i want to listen,

2 one who download movie/animae i wanna watch,

2 one who dotes on me gradually,

2 one who wipe away my tears with ur sleeve,

2 one who share drinks with me when i cant finish,

2 one who share food with me when i wanna try out the food.

2 one who always worry about me..

2 one who starts to miss me at times..

2 one who cares so much..

thank you for everything..

many more to type..

but brain cant generate now..

but still thank you for everything=)

Tired

2007-06-14T17:38:00.000+08:00

Feeling so tired..

Gonna explode anytime..

everything..

is just making me so stress..

the pile doesnt seems to stop..

it just get higher..

so many things to do sia..

I going thru it again..

that feeling..

of not wanting to do anything at all..

I want a good rest at home..

to slp..

maybe just one last cry..

n i will be strong again?

Smiling=)

2007-06-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

I'm smiling away now.
Just read a fren's blog..
And realised that she is getting marry..
She is so xin fu=)
Congrats to u if u r reading this:p

I woke up late and I got to take a cab to work..
How i wish everyday got someone to come and pick me up for work..
hehe..
I get to eat a combination of my favourites last nite.

Thank you=)

Thinking about you has left me smiling from time to time..
No matter how u treat me..
Good or bad..
all the memories kept within ourselves..
That special bond that no one understand..
You just left me smiling..
Till the day comes I shall just sit around and wait ^.^

4/6/07

2007-06-04T13:08:00.000+08:00

Just a little touch up of wat happening last week dan i gonna write an emo entry(according to rayner)

Last week was quite an eventful week i guess..
There was the President Star Charity at Turf Club..
And it was POK bdae=)
Happy Bdae PORK KIM CHI!!!! lolx..
Dan went to RAV after mel's on wednesdae..
Wanted to go MOS however it was packed..
So david,michelle and jasper and i went rav instead..
Dan thursday stayed home..
Friday work at mels and after which went down to dbl o to meet the guys for pok bdae celebration..
Oh it was a messy nite tat day.. lolx..
Thanks to some pple who was dead drunk and can laid on the floor..
Sunday went to watch POC and Shrek 3..
Dunoe when able to meet up with the guys again in a big grp after they enter to ns..

Was chatting with Rayner online now..
And coz of talking to him, I had the inspiration to write this entry..
Another 3 more days the first batch of my frenz are going to report for their NS.
Jimmy,Louis,Pok and Tw 7June2007..
Dan Hanwei,Baofa and Rayner 15June..
Dan slowly one by one going for their NS..

== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
u guys are my movies kakis
== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
supper kakis
== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
wendy and elvin are my shopping kakis
== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
my gals are my dinner/sentosa/shopping kakis
== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
lolx
Treat you better than my girlfriend. says:
hahhaa

== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
very sad leh
== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
u guys going in=(
Treat you better than my girlfriend. says:
i know
Treat you better than my girlfriend. says:
and i am
Treat you better than my girlfriend. says:
fuck
== J0Y ==Silent Moments That Pretty Eyes Of Yours soMeHoW It JusT MaKe Me Melt says:
y scold fuck for?
Treat you better than my girlfriend. says:
cus its sad everyone is going off
Treat you better than my girlfriend. says:
things wont be the same again

Ya things sure wun be the same anymore=(
But 2 yrs is not short and its is not long..
So i m sure it will be over pretty soon..
I guessed i m going to miss u guys around..
No more Jimmy to drives me around and play mahjong with..
No more Pok to be the stalker,
No more TW (actually its good w/o him) to anyhow scold pple..lolx..
No more Louis to listen to my complains,watch movie,mahjong,dinner,supper and outings..
No more Hanwei to organise chalets,
No more Rayner with his crappy jokes and that grin of his..
No more Baofa who promised to protect me..lolx..
No more Jonathan with his silly action and cock stories..
No more Kenny Lee with his blur blur answer..
No more william with his nonsense..
Okay the lists go on lah..
Overall I just hope that we guys will keep in touch okie..
Frenz always=)
I will still continue to organise movies outings and dinner when u guys book out..
Lolx..

Never be the same again~~~

A bad start

2007-06-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

Its a new month..

And hell i m going thru a emotional roller coaster rides!!

And its only the FIRST day of the month..

Wonder how i m going to survive the rides without falling and hurting myself badly..

Silly silly me..

hoping it will turn out well..

But i guessed i had see it coming sooner or later..

Let me be this way for a few more days and I will be fine eventually I hope..

It is a bad fall..

Pretty bad...

The impact was hard.. Harder than I have expected..

If only I could turn back the clock and let the truth to be unspoken..

If only I have been wiser..

Somehow or rather...

Time will reveal it all..

I will still be here if you ever need me..

I know the key to the door is with you till the day you return it to me..

And that is when I know i will fall pretty pretty bad..

The tap will be on for awhile to let the water continue to flow..

till the day it run out of water it will stop..

thanks for everything.

28/5/07

2007-05-28T12:47:00.000+08:00

Last week I finally graduate from Temasek Poly.

Its the next chapter of my life.

Entering into the working society is something I've been waiting for.

Each time giving allowance to my mummy and auntie left a smile on their face.

Graduation day was great i guess.

Sorry cant take pictures with most of you.

Well..pictures will be uploaded soon=)

Mummy and Daddy was there to witness the ceremony=)

And yes they were happy that finally their youngest child had completed her course of studies=p

Anyway the celebration was not so bad i guess..

We had seafood at long beach at east coast..

and after that we went Phuture..

Of coz it was different grps of pple i m talking about lahz..

Thoughts

I am thinking hard how i should go about it??

Leaving that tears to dry up by itself is kinda hard as it keep falling.

You tried to dry my tears when you see it falling.

You tried to fight away my fears when you see me falling..

Best Frenz we will always be=)

Thank you pple for always leaving a smile on my face=p

Tired..

2007-05-18T08:58:00.000+08:00

okay its seems super long dat i had last update.

Just a quick one before i start my work again..
Next Wed is my grad day=)

Now everyday mon -fri working from 830 - 6pm.

At times will go down to mels to work as they are short handed too..

tat y i said i have two jobs=)

yeah its quite tiring but tink of the positive side..

Money money money..

okay tat the end of my updates.. now comes the emo part..

sometimes i wonder if i asked for too much??

sometimes i just cant control how i feel..

is the inner me..

sometimes it just hurt..

the words,the actions and the reaction..

okay that the end of the emo part..

hey i need to make it pretty short okay..

now the thinking part..

Its strange how 2 pple will have different reaction with the same sentence..

"I've craving for Donut Factory's Donut"

Guy 1 : Siao!! Go Q for 4 hours for donuts..

Guy 2 : haha.. how come got sudden craving??

Anyway to tat poor guy who Q for 4 hours and got drenched..

Thank you very much for leaving a smile on my face..

Thank you=)

Bad Day

2007-04-19T14:21:00.001+08:00

today is a hell bloody bad day for me..

had an argument..

not argument should be disagreement actually..

wanted to take a nap and ended up waking up late..

took a cab..

i waited like forever and i was late for work.

some incidents happened..

some changes..

oh ya wat a bloody bad day for me lahz..

seriously i feel like crying..

coz i think u bloody shit shouldnt be treating me like i owe u something for the things i said..

I mean is that bloody changes going to make u so bloody depress?

oh FUCK it lahz..

i seriously in a bad bad temper today..

and now even the computer is giving me problem for not accessing to the intranet..

WAT THE HELL lahz

IS A F.U.C.K.I.N.G S.H.I.T day

Missing~~~

2007-04-18T12:12:00.000+08:00

I mentioned in my previous post that i received the Graduation Ceremony invitation..

Seriously I just realised that IT END OF MY SCHOOL LIFE.

I m gonna miss it..
The life of waking up earli in the morning to go to classes, to go lunch with my classmates/friends,

to skip some boring lectures,

to go tm for long hours break,

to rush assignments,

to study for term test, class tests and exams,

copying of notes/tips from each other,

celebrating bdae at short circuits/concourse level??

to go for events together with other i.Hub members,

Organising JJ concerts with i.Hub(Jeremy's batch),

camps, cheers,water bombs, tau pok..

So much things to write..
I miss victor,jerry,dawn and many others who i did not see for awhile..

you message me last nite and tell me you got the letter to go NS..

June 7th..

Oh my..

Another of my best friend going in..

I gonna start to miss the big group of fun loving guys to go out and watch movie=(

All the guys are gonna enter the NS soon..

okay lahz.. i know u guys will still call me out when u guys book out on the weekends rite??

Goodbye to late supper..

goodbye to midnite movies..

haha..not goodbye lahz.. but soon i gonna start missing everyone..

okay this entry is kinda written when i m not in the rite mind..

lolx..

Shitty Shit

2007-04-16T14:57:00.000+08:00

Today seems to be a baddie day for me=(

Went to the toilet a number of times since i entered to the office..

Guess yesterdae pratas was the cause of it.

I spent like 10 - 15 minutes in the toilet for each visit..

I got my grad. ceremony letter last fridae..
yippie..
told mummy dearest that she have to take off on that day no matter wat..

Anyway since i m working now i better keep it short and simple..
Wait for sunday dan i update with more pictures and events=)
Some thing just leave me smiling from ear to ear^.^

At least now i know i do meant something to you.
And i know i m different from the others and is special=))

Smiles Smiles Smiles

A World of My Own

lost & found

A New Chapter

memories..

Pillar

Devil in Angel

2010

been awhile

Cant Fall Aslp

B&J Cookie Dough

Unlocking the 2nd Prison

Love

Happier Me

Tweet Tweet

Joy

silence

Flashback..

March Event

tell me sth new??

Feb's Pictures

Get For What You Pay

Once Upon a Time

Entry 171

The Old Place

#168 post

silence again

screwed!!

Silence All These Years

its just aint enough

haircut

January event

the unspoken words..

Dior Cherie

Raining..

NYE & My pressies

what should i type?

explosion

blame the weatherman

Linda & Dan Wedding - 14 sept 2008

Season of Gatherings=p

pictures

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insomia??

genting

whats on my mind??

Me, Myself & I

Sick

Miss

Updates

Thoughts

Tying The Knot??

Pictures=)

Eat & Live Healthy!!

what am i anyway

List of things~~~

Lotsa of Frenz??

Racing against Time!!

SCREAMING I N SILENCE

Pictures!!!

updates~~

Boo Boo

Goodbye..

Random Updates

Grieve

A brand New Year

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Thoughts

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Lazy

Sick

ARGHHHHHHH!!!! DAMN

19/6/07

Thank You

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